mixed feelings...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
ok so the june holidays are here.
but i dont know if i should be happy or sad.
it's like...all this pressure at hand
i used to look forward to holidays
sure, i dont hv to wake up early.
i can slp in not having to go to sch.
but there's still cca twice a week!
sometimes, i feel like not going at all.
it's jus to boring. so yeah, sometimes it can be fun.
but other times, it's plain boring.
so band camp's coming
i dont know if i should be looking forward to it.
maybe i'm jus scared to let ppl know who i really am.
i'm afraid i'll let my guard down.
the june hols dont feel like holidays at all.
with all the freakin' hw
and revision.
i feel like jus shutting myself away.
and it was like...friday i was supposed to go out
wanted to watch movie.
in the end chose to go ice-skating.
but what happened?
i changed my mind.
call me fickle if you want.
but maybe was cos i didnt dare to skate
afraid to fall down.
and cathleen was convincing me to go.
in the end i didnt and for that
i am really really sorry!!!
ugh! i've been feeling down again.
been real bored.
and there's no one to talk to...
ok actually hv but the person's busy>_<
oh and i skipped church
cos it was something to do with missions?
to tell the truth
i dont think i'll be a missionary in the near future.
so yeah, and it's until 6?!
it's so long.
and there will still be sermon.
so i guess service will actually end late today.
but yeah i'm at home
bye
