i can't believe it.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
i think i've no right to say tt i understand ppl. cos i dun even understand myself! looking back, i used to be kinda cold...and slowly opened up. i guess tts how i grew to treasure the ppl around me. finding out how she rly felt...i rly got a shock. it's like she jus burst suddenly and starts venting.
it's rly scary compared to wad i do. even i wouldnt dare be so open abt it. it made me realised how things can jus change so easily. it's hard to maintain friendships. u gotta accept the good and bad of everyone which isnt easy. i feel guilty for like letting slip stuff i dun even know i say.
i seem easy to read, but actually i'm not rly. i keep stuff to myself sometimes. and sometimes i stone, cos i think of stuff. oh well...this problem is really taking a lot out of me cos lately i've been feeling rly rly tired. i feel like jus giving up on it. it's like all those stuff...i rly got shocked. ok i know she cant stand it, but she's been nice enough to control herself for so long. up till now, i wouldnt be able to do it.
control my temper i mean. oh yeah i have a super short temper. rly bad flaw in me ): oh well reflection day was ytd and it didnt help at all. even though i felt tt it meant something. for once we were bonded!
it's 11.30 and my sis jus vomitted after eating kinder bueno. hope she's ok and it's not gastric flu. i'm rly scared when ppl fall sick actually. esp. now tt her o levels are coming. hope she'll remain healthy! shall pray for her.
haha think i'll go to my room and think think think. like wad rachael said. (: haha shall slp in tmr. and do nth! haha dun think i'll go out tmr. shall stay at home and do nth. will think abt it tmr.
must go pray! think rachael will be keeping me up until quite late cos she jus messaged tt she rly miss lao shu fen. HAHA.
