After the Fall.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
When you wake up from the sunset, what comes next?When the majestic white stallion, the one on which you were whisked away on, is now just grazing haplessly in the field. When you finally realize that your knight in shining armor, who seemed so fearless and dignified, is just a man beneath it all. When something you believed was perfect, was only perfect in your mind. When you reach that cruel moment where reality hits you with full force, wake up from the dream and then realize it was just that - a dream.
It's the fall that defines your path through life, for it's how you continue after the fall that defines who you are.Some days are more testing than others, and some nights are an endless crusade. It's all an ocean, an infinite sea of remorse and you are caught alone, trapped within its current. Like the sailors hearing the siren's call, the regret beckons you within the darkness that accompanies the night.You try, God do you try, to act like the fall never hurt.But it did. It still does…You try not to be bitter, you try to understand, you try everything… but everything
is always just out of reach, and as the months pass on, you do better… but never 'well.' Your life moves on, and so does theirs
, but you always dwell on the 'what could have been.'Maybe some things are just never meant to be, and you have to accept that fact. And how do you know if you have survived the fall? It's when the past catches up to you, and you are able to look him
in the eyes… and finally say goodbye.it's been a while since i last read this! :D
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2090333/1/After_the_Falli like the starting paragraph but i have no idea why. i guess because there is some truth to it? all the 'what could have been's in our lives.
and so yes i finished reading until the part where the author has stopped. i hope she updates soon! yay. i slept late because of this.
caught up on my movies to watch! watched hellboy ytd. it was quite okay. some parts were funny. but the ending's quite sweet! because of what he said (:
so reflection day today. sang songs from mamma mia! and aww amanda cried when the song 'if we hold on together' was playing. went to hug her :D and a bunch of other ppl after that. haha rachael teo! and you're welcome (:
today was quite fun. almost cried though. band was terrible today ): and no matter how much i hate it, she makes sense and i can't argue with that. ohoh today's the first time me and mag packed the chairs! hahaha. we managed to escape for two years. but now we're being nice ppl :D we were quite annoyed cos band ended late today. like really late in a long while. when i left school it was 7 alr. tch
sigh. i have a new theory today :D and i think it makes sense. haha and i'm still deciding if i shld go tmr.
