cos love's gonna get you down ;

2009-11-16T15:18:00.002+08:00

OKAY I'M OFFICIALLY SWITCHING TO LJ BYEBYE!

and i'll post soon. hahahah

http://confettismile.livejournal.com

one more month!

2009-09-26T22:50:00.002+08:00

so...IT'S ONE MORE MONTH TO Os! :/

but before that,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN! :D we really need to catch up when everything's over! hahaha. i know you're enjoying yourself now

i can't wait for it to be over so i can do everything i wanna do. catch up with everyone and stuff. one more month! time to chiong.

so anyway, watched the ugly truth and the time traveller's wife on thurs. the ugly truth was really bad! so sad. it was only kinda funny because of all the sexual references -.- but other than that, NOTHING!

and so since both jingo and i were really annoyed, we travelled to orchard to watch the time traveller's wife! which was good :D even though the ending was sad ): told my mom she should go watch it hahaha.

the guy reminds me of christian bale haha. at first i said patrick dempsey. then i was like okay maybe not! the girl's pretty. haha so they make a good screen couple :D

so yes, one more month! probably won't blog for a long long while. i can't even rmb everything that's happened. but i guess even if i do rmb it doesn't mean i have to pen it all down.

see this is why i don't wanna ever lose my memory. cos all my memories are in my head ): and i'd cry if i forgot. but i guess i wouldn't even cry cos i wouldn't know that i had forgotten it in the first place! :/ that's even worse.

i'm rambling. but yeah. whatever. i wanna be where wenjing is now! cos singapore's way too boring tch.

and being idealistic kinda sucks. ohwell!

I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet

:/

2009-09-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

my whole body's aching and i have no idea why! i didn't even do anything strenous to my body (hope the spelling was right even though it looks wrong!)

school's over, PRELIMS AREN'T. sigh i think my school's really horrible haha but ohwell! shall be a good kid and study. went to ikea today :D which brings really funny memories. and ate meatballs yay! it's been a while

bought new things. hahaha. and i want a big bed! it's so spacious and nice. but it's not like i can fit one into my room so no difference. sigh.

MY BODY REALLY HURTS. so annoying. shall go sleep it off soon.

i'm getting lazy to blog. ohwell. this is what happens when your life's been robbed by studying.

and another annoying thing. can't find the right score! tch. guess i'll figure it out after Os. so many things i wanna do when it's finally over! it's like one loooooooooong list. and oh all the movies too :D

but for now, focus hahaha

shit i'm really aching too much. can't stand it.

Why don't we hit restart
And pause it at our favourite parts?

wedding dinner :D

2009-08-16T17:22:00.003+08:00

went to my cousin's wedding dinner last night :D hahaha it was quite cool in the sense that we sat at the VIP table! there's a reason to it. but that's not the point hahaha

it really only started at 8plus O: i liked the lighting of the heart frame! it was really cool :D too bad the flames didn't move evenly :/ but it was nice.

the food was alright haha. me and my bro came up with a lot of theories last night! we need to entertain ourselves what :D then he started annoying me. until we switched to talking about someone else. then we had a mutual agreement. which is really true! (doubt anyone will understand this hahaha)

so anyway after the whole thing, something weird happened o.O this guy got possessed or something. weird. and then i learnt from my mom that my second aunt believes in this kind of thing. so we were like okay. but it was weird

we cabbed home. then when we were reaching our house, the taxi driver suddenly told us about how one there was once in the middle of the night he was driving and there was a king cobra on the road! O:

that's scary and cool at the same time. it must have come out from the forest. but WOAH! that there can actually be a king cobra is amazing enough alr haha. then yeah reached home and slept at 1 haha.

i think my mom let me sleep in today :D cos i only woke up at like close to 11 hahaha. and we didn't go church today. think it's because of my dad. ohwell!

and now i shall go back to writing the damn chinese compo. got so annoyed that's why i came here. SIGH. then must study chem. and maybe amath. but now i don't feel like alr tch. but i shall try!

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

UP! :D

2009-08-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

watched UP! (i like it like that :D) today with melody haha. it was awesome! russell's so cute.

"Hi my name is Russell and I'm a wildnerness explorer from tribe 54."

i can't remember the next line. but that's not the point! he was so cute and funny :D and i love mr fredricksen too! hahaha he's funny in his own old man way :D

so yes it was really nice! i wouldn't mind watching it again haha.

thanks for today melody! :D it's been a long long while since we went out together! haha

happened to meet wenjing there who gave me a shock because she blew into my ear! tsk. and sorry about today :/ meet up again soon! definitely before you leave :D

two more episodes before i'm done with gossip girl :D i need to at least finish it! and maybe lost hahaha. even though the show's really retarded.

ohoh and i hope vanessa and danica did what they wanted to do today :D haha! so amusing.

yuki yaki :D

2009-08-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

yay our long awaited eating session! hahaha we finally did it ytd. went to yuki yaki :D although it was weird without lynette around. we concluded it would definitely be more fun if she had come!

did retarded things hahaha. it was quite worth it :D and we barely ate steamboat loh. we fried almost everything haha. the frying part was really retarded, but fun all the same!

then we started gossiping. ohman and i think i was the one who started it! O: but ohwell. was quite surprised at what we shared haha. ANYWAY! we were quite full alr. but we still tried the frying ice-cream thingie :D for the experience!

haha and it was fun :D it wasn't really frying lah. more like freezing! eileen took most of the pictures so it's on her phone. haha we came up with funny stuff. we concluded the nicest was peppermint. then we started mixing flavours. so best was chocolate mint i think :D

we broke our personal records! we spent four hours there O: but yay at least it was fun. went to shop for presents after that :D random, strange ideas! but ohwell. and then we went back.

ohoh i saw michelle! after so long man. hahaha talked for a while. then had to go alr. gloria pointed out that we were talking in the middle of citylink. i didn't even know that haha. ohwell. it was nice seeing her again :D as annoying as she is for not coming back to visit for so long TSK.

so anyway, i guess it was a nice way to end off the week (: was feeling pretty burnt out the past few days. didn't really bother studying for the tests. ohwell! but yes. three more weeks to prelims! gah

and i shall end off here now. trying to clear songs from my ipod so it'll be 16GB. but abit hard leh. sigh!

oh-so-sad.

2009-07-28T17:31:00.002+08:00

i have a sad life now ): i can't wait for Os to be over!

i'm gonna fail bio test AGAIN. sigh. on the way home with eileen today. we started talking about what we would do after Os. and we started planning about what we should do right after Os! go out straight after our last paper :D yay so fun

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIANCA! :D heh. yay we sang a birthday song to her the minute she walked in hahaha. thanks for being such a dear retarded tablepartner :D (you wouldn't even know she's retarded until you talk to her hahahah) look forward to a nice 9 o clock tmr! :D yay i'm such a nice partner. thanks for tolerating me hahaha.

i hate the weather. i seriously think it's the cause of why so many people are falling sick! tsk. vanessa went home halfway cos she was falling sick. coming down with a fever! so she's probably not coming tmr.

oh we got owned during PE today hahahah. we were outnumbered by the way. but anyway it was retarded. hahahah.

OHOH I LOST WEIGHT! hahahah and it's a permanent loss i just weighed myself again :D and i didn't even do anything! haven't been exercising i feel so unhealthy :/ but yeah. maybe sleeping alot really helps! cos i slept a lot when i fell sick haha. burn more calories.

okay shall go back to what i was supposed to do. i intend to sleep early today :D after sleeping at 1 this morning. tsk. coffee does help me hahaha.

but other than that, i have a sad sad life ):

on a random note, i like fridays :D

and on another random note, a word a day helps too! although some of my plots are really crappy :/

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.

sleep and more sleep.

2009-07-17T14:36:00.003+08:00

i've been sleeping so much lately! like some pig. but that's only because i fell sick. and didn't go to school at all. ohwell. been slacking at home. never study or anything ): i feel bad. but it's not my fault! i'm excused hahaha

but yes. stupid flu. it's not h1n1. although all the symptoms are there hahahha. i really hope my fever goes down soon though! it's annoying.

and i just realised that i can't go tmr ): DAMN!

hmm the mio tv thingie came a few days ago. it has free movies :D haha so i did watch them. like hitch! hahaha and i rmb one quote

"life is not the number of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away."

something like that, but yes i like that quote! :D it's probably really old, but who cares, i like it. and i think i'll stop slacking today. provided i'm not drowsy later at night :D

ohwell.

2009-07-09T17:48:00.002+08:00

couldn't take it anymore.

it's only coming to two weeks. and i feel so weak. damn you!

so many things happened. good and bad, but now i'm too lazy to write anything alr. don't feel like remembering all the shit things that happened and all the things i did :/

gonna screw up ss! sigh. felt like writing FUCK! and handing in. didn't even study that part. thanks bianca for trying to comfort me after the test :D haha she was like "natalie they'll probably just mark one part! so maybe they'll mark the source-based questions!" haha thanks, but that was equally difficult too! :/ ohwell

i don't feel like blogging here alr. maybe i'll really switch to lj. SIGH!

haven't blogged in ages. doubt anyone cares anyway so.

When you can't take it anymore,
what do you do?

God help me.

yeah right!

2009-06-28T21:47:00.001+08:00

okay so school holidays are ending. tmr's back to school!

I'M GONNA BE A MUGGER.

didn't even feel like i had a holiday. pffft.

anyway here's something cool that just happened :D

SOMEONE GAVE BIRTH AT THE CARPARK!

i think it's very cool! too bad i didn't get to witness it. my dad scolded me and in the end he went to look -.-

but yes i think it's very cool. scary, but still cool. when he grows up, he's gonna have a really interesting story to tell! (yes my dad told us it's a boy! haha)

think about it, how many people actually get to say they were born at the carpark?

i got a new nephew. he's pretty cute :D except he had rashes when we saw him.

today's sermon made sense to me. i guess it's true that sin comes from our own weaknesses. so we can't blame it solely on the devil (as much as i would like to!)

so yeap. back to school. hope i can get through it.

DAMNIT

2009-06-22T22:32:00.003+08:00

stupid phone's been sent for repair. probably gonna lose everything that was inside. i feel very dumb for not saving them ):

and i currently have no spare phone at home so. no one's gonna be able to contact me. UGH.

so annoying. but no point being annoyed. just hope it gets repaired soon! :D

and i'm glad ytd made you happy heh :D

i lost the mood to write anything alr. christine's diary posts hahaha! it's in a way cute. DON'T GET TOO EGO.

my mom's on the phone. and i just rmb there was a cockroach last night! in my bro's room. eeeewww. yeah man when i die, i'm really gonna ask God why he created cockroaches! there's no use for them. and he made them survive radiation too! so unfair.

I wish there was a way. Somehow.

movies :D

2009-06-20T20:07:00.001+08:00

went out with wenjing on friday :D watched two movies hahaha. ghost of girlfriend's past and i love you, man. both were funny :D i love you, man was nc16. i'm legal alr yay! hahaha. wenjing's not yet, anyway they don't check so it's okay.

walked around randomly. and talked. went to macs and sat down. and talked somemore! haha and we didn't even buy anything. it was fun catching up :D

celebrated father's day today! went to the equinox. which is on the 70th floor! so high. and the view was quite cool :D hahahah. ate high tea over there.

there was a small girl! found out she's jap after that haha. ANYWAY! for some strange reason, she was trying to grab my hair o.O haha in the end i touched hers! she's so cute lah. went back home after that. skipped dinner heh :D we always do that. wasn't very hungry anyway.

they went out after fetching me home. buy pillow for my bro. who is coming back on fri! haha. it's so fast. but yeah. just watched an episode of gossip girl! it was a really funny episode btw :D

"do you know how hard it is to get revenge when your enemy's changing every five minutes?!"

haha i found this really funny. blair's comments are so retarded sometimes.

gonna study now. sigh!

hotel stay again :D

2009-06-14T14:14:00.002+08:00

haha just came back from the hotel. merchant court hotel. it wasn't as nice as the previous one though! but still can lah. lynette's message was really funny. "why you keep going to hotel?!?! what happened to your house?"

hahah my house is perfectly fine! kept watching tv when we were there. watched never been kissed, a bit of it's a boy girl thing, a bit of a lot like love (which was boring so we switched it off and played cards instead), the dark is rising which turned out to be really dumb! and the ratings they give on star movies is really retarded. 15years and below for the dark is rising? it's not even scary! haiyoh

yeah so basically i slacked when i was there :D hahaha

hmm...okay school ended on tues. ended early :D met vanessa on wednesday to get my score. studied with her haha! we went to the library. but there were these annoying bunch of kids who were making so much noise so i suggested we go eat :D went mos burger. and we saw weiping! and her friend. haha we sat in front of them. so yeah i did study loh. she kept talking TSK. hahaha

met jingo the next day. we planned to watch a movie, but we both ended up being late. gave up watching it, went to her house instead :D and watched wall-e hahahah. and i was commenting so much about it. but i kinda agree with amanda (yes i still rmb what she said because it was so funny hahaha) the movie was only okay to me. i don't see what's so cute about wall-e! ohwell

did math and then went back. haha didn't do much. but at least i did something! unlike you tsk.

anyway, wenjing's back! like finally :D church later.

learning journey and what not.

2009-06-06T20:31:00.004+08:00

i'm getting in the mood of studying! no idea if that's a good or bad thing. almost done with all the homework. left with bio transport in plants the horror O: i hate plants! i don't get why we have to learn about them

learning journey on monday! to pierce resevoir. the walk there was freaking hot. and then we had to do this nature walk or something. before we finally reached the place where we could sit!

haha and we didn't really learn much. vanessa was telling us about the history of the resevoir. then five minutes later, let's eat! and so we did. the chips that were supposed to be shared among a few spread to the whole class hahha. not that we minded. then we started playing games

played twister! which was so...twisted (for lack of a better word) and really wrong! hahaha saw the pictures on facebook alr. i took some of them! haha. we gave up after three rounds. it got too tiring. and then mrs tan was still sitting down so comfortably throughout the game!

then we played retarded games. like what is the time mr. wolf? amanda was the wolf! hahaha. and she was also the lao ying when we played lao ying zhua xiao ji! and lynette is a great mu ji. grabbing amanda and preventing her from catching us! and then i got out of the game because i couldn't stop laughing. my sides were hurting haha

oh then we played ice and water. where me and nat were supposed to freeze everyone! nat and nat hahaha. we got tired after a while. but we did catch everyone at first loh. just that somehow they got unfrozen tch. then we gave up too.

sharon's dare! my respect for her went higher after that! :D she was really cool

first time we just screamed when he actually picked up! haha and then the second time.

"hi baby are you free tonight? oops sorry wrong number!"

and then sharon hangs up. whole class bursts into laughther! hahahah. she's really cool can!

first week of extra lessons done. it's scary how fast time passes ): we did our amath test in the dark ytd! there was a blackout. i'm gonna fail it. SIGH. imagine knowing you're gonna lose 16 marks. first two qns were okay, the next two. sigh no need to do alr! i really gave up lah. didn't even know how to integrate tch.

blackout again during chem! it was really hot. after that my head was really hurting. AGAIN! it's been like that for the whole week. it's definitely the weather. because i had a headache again today. was gonna go home but i didn't haha. went over to jingyi's house instead. read calvin&hobbes :D i'm halfway through! gonna finish the other half soon.

it's annoying how persistent you can get! TSK.

my tuition got cancelled! changed to another day. and today's tuition got changed to tmr too. haha so i could watch wizards of waverly place and hannah montana! :D both episodes were funny. the ending of wizards of waverly place was really sweet (: i would quote it if i could haha

just finished watching ghost whisperer. i'm lagging. but yay she's pregnant! and i think the guy in the episode i just watched is cute :D he reminds me of chad michael murray! haha

hotel stay next week. and i don't think my parents expect me to study! hahaha my mom was like "we can laze around on saturday...watch tv, play cards!" and i added shopping :D hahahah which they will bring us lah. i'm not worried about that heh.

so okay back to homework. my parents are out to dinner on their own cos i was too hungry to wait for them to drive my sis down to church. i'm gonna be disciplined heh. i'm a good kid :D

POP!

2009-06-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

okay this is a really belated post. shall talk about POP :D

well the whole cermony was rather screwed up at the end. i rushed out of school to get presents, and i delayed everyone O: but aww they waited for me! :D it was nice of them hahaha.

nothing much to say. except it was really drama. hmm. no point saying anything alr because we can't undo whatever happened anyway.

so section dinner at crystal jade. had steamboat! and their service was really bad until mag got so pissed and shouted at them :D then they became really nice to us. it was funny. and we burnt the steamboat hahahaha. i rmb the funny part was when carrots suddenly appeared! everyone was like huh since when were there carrots? i thought they knew lah. because i did! just that i forgot about it hahaha. it was at the base of the pot and got burnt

vanessa's parents came and fetched us to the chalet :D by then it was really late alr haha. and we were really dirty because we didn't bathe. slept in our band uniform hahaha.

and so we woke up and bathed in the morning. BK breakfast. then vanessa came with me back to school to get my medicine. thanks! :D then we trained back to the chalet after cabbing. it's really like a one hour trip O:

things happened when we weren't there. but ohwell. and alot of things happened. and it pissed everyone off. went to watch night at the museum with vanessa! :D while the juniors wandered around haha. they didn't want to watch it so.

by the time we had bbq, everything was fine so yay :D danica came for the bbq! hahaha you're probably gonna get ego. but yes you made it feel more complete haha. it was fun :D i guess what tiffany said is true. that everyone should have bbqs! cos you can really bond haha. too bad danica couldn't stay over.

we watched boys over flowers. SIGH! i still don't get why everyone's crazy over the show though. so annoying! tiffany's friend came over haha. bathed. played a few rounds of bridge. anyone who plays with him almost always has a high chance of winning! then we ended up betting abit. mag won throughout can! but i only lost once so not so bad either :D

we went to sleep at close to 4? vanessa was like some pig can. sleep so much. but i think it was because she was sick hahha. her nose blocked! we had macs for breakfast that morning. i was so tired by the time we were on the train. the videos tiffany showed me were hilarious :D and i can't believe guys would actually learn the dance! i can't imagine

wanted to sleep but i didn't in the end. went to church. nothing much after that. been having headaches every day since then ): but i think it's the weather! it's screwing me up gah.

jubilate VI

2009-05-24T12:18:00.003+08:00

thanks for all the flowers :D and all the hugs. i guess it was really emotional at the end. no idea why. but yeah.

took loads of pictures! hahaha. but it's all with other ppl. shall go get from them in time to come :D i didn't get to take a picture with cheryl in the end! ohman.

miss sia was HILARIOUS. hahahha. she scolded him! and imitated him too it was so funny i couldn't stand it. couldn't stop laughing. and then she started complaining about him hahahahah. so funny.

hmm then we rehearsed in the room. and that was when weishan cried O: awwww. i gave her a really big hug. cos she looked like she could use it. and because she's so small! it's really nice to hug her haha. then she hugged me back really tightly too. aww :D she's so cute. then later on she felt so proud that she started the whole thing. cos after that others started crying too!

sorry aikching i couldn't go out in time ): but thanks anyway! it's the thought that counts :D during interval we were sitting down. waiting for it to start. me and vanessa were on the opposite ends of belle and weishan. then we smiled at them heh. and at that point i was alr thinking omg it's my last performance!

haha then it really started. curtains came up. and she walked in. stand up smile at the audience. hear so many ppl cheering. hahah before we played jericho was quite funny! because she was about to start but because everyone was still cheering she put her hands down. i was laughing when it was supposed to be serious oops O: then got ready.

hmm it wasn't really our best but ppl said we sounded okay so okay! haha okay then we were walking off stage. i got hit by a tuba on the head! O: and then i started crying hahahah. vanessa said it was because the part that got knocked is the part that controls my emotions! hahaha but then later on after seeing clarice cried i really started crying ):

and then i actually stopped! but started again. sigh i'm gonna miss it :/ four years and suddenly it stops. need to get used to that feeling. then yes it ended.

i slept at like 1plus haha. really late. so i woke up late too. tuition and what nots. need to study now. and focus. set my goal! i alr have it. i just need to work towards it. hmm

we played cards last night. my parents are so cute :D hahah then my dad suddenly played some random song that came with his phone. and it's quite a funny song! i like the music. the title is the feel good song and the funny part is that it actually does make you feel good! hahahha. and i could sing along to it when it was my first time hearing it. amusing.

oh yeah. THREE MORE WEEKS! :D and you're back yay. haha but need to study now gah. stupid integration! i need to do well. and get rid of that annoying stupid C5. TCH.

(:

2009-05-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

chem spa lesson today was hilarious :D i love the people around me because they are just so hilarious. so we did some random experiment with calcium something and magnesium strip. then add hydrochloric acid and watch it react.

well, we got bored and after that we started mixing stuff around. so i think we added coal, salt, copper (II) carbonate is it? copper (II) sulphate and i'm not sure if there were others. hahaha then clarice added acid!

okay so at first there was no reaction. but the minute it did, we all took a step back! and then we started laughing haha. it was so funny because we all did the same thing at the same time! and our faces probably mirrored one another's too.

hahahah then we continued mixing until we heard her saying "has everyone finished?" and she started walking around. so cleo was the pro. she took the beaker and just poured the contents away and started washing normally with the "innocent" look on her face. we couldn't stop laughing after that.

this is what we do to entertain ourselves for one hour. it was fun :D

finally done with all the tests. exhausted myself which probably explains why my throat is feeling like this now ): i think i'm falling sick! ohwell.

and i think i pressed the keys too hard during band. my finger bled O: partly because the skin was alr peeling. exerting pressure on it just made it worse. watched dance perform today! haha their music sounds scary. so weird.

ate dinner outside with my mom today. and i'm actually too lazy to do anything else so i shall take a break from everything. i'll do tmr heh :D

and i'm traumatized now! tch. anyway here's a quote:

You can do anything, think or believe what you like, have all the knowledge in the world, but if you don't love someone, you are nothing. - Marcelle Sauvageot

i guess that makes sense. haha okay shall go off now.

i can't wait for american idol. adam lambert VS kris allen. after today's mini-debate during chem, i think both stand a chance of winning! and actually i support both. but if i did have to choose, i would choose adam lambert! hahaha. ohwell. two more days :D

last camp!

2009-05-16T15:18:00.003+08:00

just came back from band camp. i'm really tired and i have tuition later at 4 ):

so overall camp was quite alright. i preferred day games to night games! haha. and yay i feel happy i contributed to my group winning second :D credit goes to chengmei too! who joined my group and helped us to score one point hahaha. then i scored the other two :D before leaving to discuss posts.

i think at one point of the netball game, the way i caught the ball was really funny. i didn't even know how i got it! but it was quite unusual. can't rmb who was the one who commented but it went like woah natalie not bad! i think it was chengmei hahaha. so it was quite fun.

got to sort of know the juniors better haha. at least i can put the names to the faces now! horror movie at night really scared me. but then at the end we realised the ghost is actually good! so yay. and it was quite retarded because we were cheering for the guy to escape. and it's only a movie haha. but i guess that's what makes it fun and less scary :D

but sadly it doesn't mean the images aren't in my mind ): SIGH.

haha then night games. our level ran away from our groups and went to the field and did a lot of retarded things. had a lot of screaming. until i think the neighbours complained O: and called the police! so when we wanted to scare the sec3s, we had to cancel our plans because there were those five policemen.

but in the end they came just to tell us not to make so much noise haha. so okay we won't do it again! played cards until like 3plus and then we went to sleep. which explains why i felt like i was having a hangover. headache :/ but ohwell. my last camp, might as well! :D

oh and before i forget, wednesday was a really cool day in school. i guess our school really is very united in a strange way haha!

so okay in the morning we heard this class screaming. then after a while we got really curious. and then they screamed so loud we wanted to see the commotion! and so we did. and it wasn't just our class, EVERYONE ELSE WAS OUTSIDE TOO! like all the levels. okay maybe not all but i knew the sec4s were hahaha. and sec3s too.

apparently a crow came and ate a sparrow or something O: so weird! which reminded us of last year when the bird got eaten. ON MY BIRTHDAY SOMEMORE! it was so traumatizing.

yeah but i think it was really cool. because all of us got distracted and went outside just to see what was going on! hilarious.

haha okay. have to go like now. i hope i can stay awake ):

ohoh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANICA! even though you're annoying as to miss band camp, my last one somemore! you're still a nice junior and i hope you'll enjoy yourself today haha :D don't let your flu ruin your birthday. oh and don't miss me too much when i leave! :D hahaha

high tea :D

2009-05-09T17:45:00.004+08:00

heh kinda lazy to post the pictures from the day at raffles hotel. some are retarded. just came back from high tea :D which was nice. in the end i ate quite alot hahaha. the food was alright. and the things we talked about were retarded!

was cramping ytd so i went home and missed band :D oh have been watching cheer pracs for the past few days. haha and yay we think eileen can get in :D told her that she must study hard if she gets in. must know how to balance!

hmm so actually i think the past few days i've been pms-ing. would explain how screwed up i was feeling on thurs. my instru dropped ): so i was angry/sad/annoyed whatever. i wasn't sure either. but after band, i was really glad i took the bus with shereen :D she took my mind off things! haha so that was good :D

talked to abigail after school that day too. during eng remedial but nvm we didn't disturb them so :D hmm it's really quite a waste. but yeap it's really up to her.

and you know what, i can't wait to step down. even though i know how much danica's gonna miss me :D haha! but yes. band camp next week. i think it'll be quite fun hahaha. and i'm not even gonna bother bringing a sleeping bag cos i highly doubt we'll sleep!

they wanna go for a walk but i don't feel like walking. so i guess i shan't :D i walked last week loh. and relived my forgotten childhood. i really don't rmb walking through the park! O: must have been too young. but yes i still love the swing :D

shall finish up my tuition homework. it got cancelled and changed to tmr. it's mother's day! ohwell. need to study. so many tests. esp. geog gah

wake up with the fondest memories

2009-05-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

i guess holding in everything does help. felt so demoralised after the amath test (yes i got really sad because i left like 10over marks blank)

but there's no point thinking about it alr. so i'm not. went to j8 with melody after that. hahaha we finally bought gloria's present! we saw dionne and limin! going down the escalator and then i shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIONNE!!!! to her :D

wanted to watch ghost whisperer. didn't get to in the end. i watched the adventures of food boy instead on disney channel! which is quite retarded hahaha.

i'm scared for my daddy because he's not here right now ):

i don't know how to describe friday, but it was comforting. and really nice (: and i wish it could be like that every day. but that's not really possible so.

tmr's auditions. i printed out the list of ppl hahaha anyone who sees the paper will probably be quite amused tmr :D

and i love friends. it's hilarious. "FREE PORN!" hahahhaha

I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before
I'll be there for you, 'cause you're there for me too

tch.

2009-05-01T17:02:00.003+08:00

went for my check-up. i guess it's alright, but the doctor told me if i wanted to make it better, i should swim or run O: i don't mind swimming. but he said running helps more! gah. so annoying. we ate at delifrance. then we met this old friend who used to attend our church. and according to my mom, she taught me and my sis for baptism class. but yes after so many years i still can recognise her!

hmm then the other person is like my dad's "big sister" as she calls herself. because they've known each other for many years. since they were teenagers! that's really long. i don't even know if i can stay in touch with anyone for that long. sigh!

after watching american idol, i realised that i like the jazz/ballad kind of genre! the songs are old, but nice :D i like the music. adam lambert was bottom three O: was so shocked! and so was kris! i forgot to tell gloria. cos she supports him haha. matt got kicked out ): and i feel sad for him. actually come to think of it, i'd feel sad if anyone of them went back at this stage. because they're all good!

but yes still gonna continue watching. only a bit more before it's all over.

went to run with bianca this morning hahaha. and i'm gonna fail thanks to my back ): it's so annoying. sorry bianca!

parents are at raffles hotel now! pictures maybe tmr. the place is really nice. old and cool :D we went to eat at Long Bar. and yes it's really a bar. because the Long Bar Steakhouse was closed! hahahaha. anyway i can't order anything alcoholic so. but when we reached the hotel my parents let me drink singapore sling. which is quite alright. you can hardly taste the alcohol. it's sweet!

What we call a reason for living is at the same time an excellent reason for dying. - Albert Camus

found this quote in a book. and it's amazing how true it sometimes is! ohwell.

17 again!

2009-04-26T10:59:00.002+08:00

honestly, i can't really rmb what i've done for the past week. i do rmb watching 17 again which was quite nice :D

track finals on thurs! and amanda was so cool hahaha. only for running then she's cool. we all had a newfound respect for her. only for the next few days :D but yeap. except for the sweltering heat, it was fun (: and thanks to gloria pointing out, it's kinda our last fun thing before o levels alr ):

going home was hilarious. gloria kept making us laugh, put our school's reputation at stake man! hahahah. but it was funny. and disturbing.

stupid punishment on fri. tch. it wasn't so bad. just annoying. talked on the phone, did some homework. and for some reason i slept really late! like 1plus O: just didn't feel that tired after a while haha. so i slept in :D

tuition and other stuff. dinner at causeway point and we met my sister's friends o.O so we ended up eating dinner with them! it was kinda weird haha. then my sis got all sad because they didn't sell the phone model anymore. ohwell

and my parents are going for a hotel stay AGAIN. this time, in a suite! O: i don't think i'm staying, but i'm definitely gonna see how it looks like hahaha.

and i'm so tempted to watch ghost whisperer now. my mom gave me spoilers alr ): so annoying tch.

randomness

2009-04-18T21:34:00.006+08:00

did the quizzes melody did on her lj. just did for fun

The Chocolate Oracle Says You're Classy

You are sophisticated, modern, and high class.
Your taste is refined, but you are not picky.
You are often the first to try something new.

You are emotionally expressive and sensitive.
You're effected by everything around you.
Your friends appreciate your open heart, but they are afraid of hurting your feelings.

You love to be in love. You crave romance, whether you're single or not.
You feel lost when you don't feel passion... you need someone to adore.

The Chocolate Oracle

You Are ROTFL

When you're online, you're the life of the party.
You always have a silly link to share or a new emoticon that you've discovered.

You're always up for chatting, and you respond to your friends' messages right away.
You're not just laughing out loud with friends online... you're rolling on the floor laughing!

What Internet Slang Are You?

You Are Facebook

You are social, outgoing, and excited to connect to your friends.
You are interested in your friends' lives, and you enjoy adding your opinion to the mix.

While you enjoy sharing online, you don't want everyone to know your business.
You value your privacy. Your life is an open book to those you know but not to strangers.

Are You Facebook, MySpace, or Twitter?

Your Personality at 35,000 Feet Is Friendly and Gregarious

Deep down, you vastly prefer being with others to being alone. You love to engage people in conversation.

You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.

Your gift is relating to other people. You don't hide from your own emotions, and you are good at drawing other people out.

You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you.

It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

i guess most of them are quite true. some good :D some bad haha

just found the score for river flows in you by yiruma :D thanks to my sis, i now like it. and mad world by adam lambert is currently my favourite song! hahaha.

and OMG JUST NOW THERE WAS A COCKROACH THAT FLEW JUST OVER MY HEAD! and the adults were here today. haha so i screamed DADDY THERE'S A COCKROACH!! from my room. i was so scared i wanted to cry ): so yes that's how scared i am of cockroaches.

eeeeeee but yes it got caught alr and it's dead so yay :D lit seminar today. me and denise agreed that is was abit disorganised! and the food hahah. they gave the guests more tch.

so anyway before i end off i shall post the conversation i had with tiffany a couple of days ago. i forgot when alr. haha i think it was tues! it was quite funny. when i was going off alr

good night and sweet dreams
sorry ah
aww don't be sad
i'm still thinking abt stuffs!
sorry for what
i was doing homework
yea...trying to...my friend is like "comforting" me
why in ""?
cos your friend's making it worse? hahaha
hmmm, cos he's making it worse
HAHA
HAHA
COOL HAR
i'm pro
you copy me! hahahah
OKAY
go sleep la
i need to bathe too

hahaha i think it was quite funny. we said the same thing at the exact same time! and she's such a dirty pig tsk. cos she went home and slept straight away haha.

okay that's all shall go try the score :D (hey it rhymes!)

surprises and what not.

2009-04-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

surprised them on tuesday during band :D it was quite fun getting ready and stuff. the bears were really cute! hahaha they even resemble them O:

then this whole week. teaching the juniors. AHHHHHH! i just hope they'll improve soon! if not, OHWELL.

screwed up the amath test. that's just great. even gloria found it hard ): sigh.

band was really funny today though! we were downstairs in the band room, playing pirates (okay they were playing, i was sitting beside lijie and listening to them cos i kept my instru alr :D)

so anyway we were playing when suddenly we heard a PIAK sound! and both me and lijie screamed cos two lizards fell from the top! O: and onto the floor. we were like OMG! then she went up one flight and i went to the far end of the room. hahahah

and the brave chengmei! used a drum stick and chased it out to the huge drain and tried to make it drop down. sichen was the one that did it though haha! and then huimin was like "the lizard jumped off the building!" hahahahah so retarded

the juniors did drills today. then we could hear them screaming from the band room. it was so loud! haha. in preparation for noms. i have no idea when it is though! shall find the piece soon since almost everyone is finding pieces for them to play.

lit seminar tmr. 8.30-1.30 :/ tuition after. gonna be so tired. hopefully i can stay awake!

we're lost without each other!

2009-04-13T19:54:00.003+08:00

listening to it now! lost without each other by hanson :D old song but i still quite like it (:

so anyway good friday was spent in church. which was i must say, well spent! haha i understand the testimony, which was given in cantonese yay :D grandma and aunts came that day. and so did danny. who drove us to church hahaha

lunch at rafflescity. it was alright. and it's times like these when we have mutual understanding hahahah. "I know, you know, can already!" how true.

it was raining heavily ): so i didn't do what i wanted to do. although i could have because it stopped raining after that. and i was annoyed during dinner tch. but i felt alright after a while haha.

saturday! lunch is quite late now. not that i mind :D it's better for me since i have tuition. which was at one point really amusing! hahaha went back home after that. watched wizards of waverly place and hannah montana! new episodes heh

and i kinda wished it had last longer. but ohwell! until next time.

easter sunday was nothing great. service ended quite late. subway for dinner with my sis :D then we went back home. watched the devil wears prada! the back part of it. i like the clothes! and when i grow up, i'm gonna tour around the world, and definitely visit paris! it's such a romantic and nice place :D

for some reason i slept really late last night. which resulted in me being tired today ): was falling asleep during geog. the kind where you can fall off your chair. which i almost did O: scary thought.

slacked for awhile when i came home. ate kinder bueno :D so did my sis hahahah. our love for it never fails!

gonna get back to doing homework soon. SIGH. band again after two weeks. played this morning and i sounded bad ): so i'm gonna practise tmr! :D

:D

2009-04-09T19:07:00.002+08:00

i guess one part of the song was how i was feeling the other time. ohwell ):

the past week has been rather random. crashed someone's house :D which was really last minute. ate subway on monday with garwai :D who's like my last-minute lunch partner! hahaha cos i drag her to eat with me.

drenched in the pouring rain on tues. which was unexpectedly relieving. if it was lighter then it wouldn't have been so bad.

and i couldn't help it. american idol! :D adam lambert's really good! when he sang yesterday, i was like woah! simon cowell gave him a standing ovation! it's really the first time. and i didn't know ann likes him hahaha. so surprising. and sadly kris wasn't very good ytd, but anyway i like both of them now hahaha. and matt's quite good too. i like his voice when he sang ytd :D

but yes. i shall be a faithful follower of american idol :D because this season is worth watching! compared to the rest haha.

today's squad talk with the teachers. what she says can really touch people and make you wanna cry ): her sincerity really comes across! sigh. but today was fun. staying for so long to talk was worth it! haha and i'm looking forward to next week

good friday tomorrow. i think the service might be interesting. the preacher's gonna speak in cantonese! haha okay that's not the main reason, it's more of what he's gonna share on.

All the empty promises I make.

broken strings by james morrison featuring nelly furtado

2009-04-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

GOLD WITH HONOURS YO!

2009-03-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST AWESOME DAY OF MY LIFE! :D

THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE SNSB GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS TODAY! 31ST MARCH 2009, SECOND DAY OF SYF, BAND NUMBER 19!

i'm still feeling really happy. and honestly today's playing was the best performance ever! we could really tell the difference. it was like woah. and at the end of jericho i was smiling to the audience alr :D that was how happy i was. the ending note was like so in tune and awesome and you could hear the rebound after we end!

and when they announced the results, we only heard "gold..." AND SO MANY PEOPLE STARTED SCREAMING! only a few people heard the with honours part. i heard the w then i was like OMG! the feeling was amazing. i seriously didn't expect to get it, at the most only gold.

but yeah man i wanna commend amk secondary. THEY'RE REALLY GOOD! as in compared to them, i actually think we're not that great, like we don't deserve it. but they went overtime which was REALLY wasted! it shows that they are GWH standard too. and their percussion was like O: they're really good! i was watching them play and i was like omg they're so pro.

anyway i think the cool part about everything is that we're the first band in singapore to get gold with honours! :D and it's only the second day. ACSI also got it. afternoon session haha.

chem test was blah. anyhow do hahahah. but yes i did! unlike clarice who doodled. i saw it. really pro. time spent after that was with some band people and chows! :D talked. listened to overture and jericho. we sound really good. i can melt just listening to our playing.

so yes i'm really happy. it really makes my time in band worthwhile. no regrets going down so often, feeling tired out and all. everything. and hey, the best part is, WE DID IT! our badge brought the gold back, WITH HONOURS may i add :D hahahah and i'm proud of it. i guess it has started to sink in. it's really unbelievable!

like a miracle as mag said. and i really think it was. it was weird, but during cheng mei's prayer, i started shivering. and i think God was with me. and i really wanna thank God for everything He has done for me. You're really amazing. i called and You really answered. thankyou (:

and to all the people who wished me, thanks loads <3 really appreciated it.

we'll see tmr if they'll announce. if not, i would happily do something next week :D

ONE.

2009-03-30T21:01:00.003+08:00

final practice today. i really don't know what we can get. i'm hoping for gold, but it seems too far to reach. and if we don't get it i think i will be disappointed, but definitely not to the point of crying.

i just wished, that our efforts would really pay off. so yes i'm scared for tmr ): hope it'll be alright.

God, I'm praying that You'll be there, I'm praying that I would be able to feel Your presence. Even though I haven't been very faithful, I know You will be, like You have always been. Amen.

i think i was pms-ing today. scared bianca haha! during maths. but it was really annoying. OHWELL. and haha i know it felt good :D and i feel happy i proved my point yay. even though i shouldn't be feeling that, but i am so :D

and i'm gonna sleep now. gotta wake up early tmr. 4plus ): and still have to stay for the stupid chem test. thank goodness it's not graded. but still. SIGH.

A FEW HOURS MORE!

countdown!

2009-03-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

TWO MORE DAYS!

consecutive practices from thurs-sat. many of us are still sick, but we're trying to get the rest we can get alr! so i'm just hoping everything will be alright. we won't freak out. sitting at the side...MAG IS SCARING ME TOO! O:

screwed up the tests so forget it. i love my mom because she is so cool :D at the parent teacher's meeting. yay! jingo's dad was amused by my mom hahaha. and i'm not the only one that thinks my mom's cool so yay.

and so annoying okay. ruined my mood on a saturday morning (debbie it's not your fault for being the bearer of bad news haha!) THEY ARE MAKING US TAKE THE CHEM TEST?! like what shit is this. they are so freaking bias. that time when the drama girls had their drama night (no offence) they could skip the test. it wasn't even a competition! ours is a competition, and we've been practising so much we're falling sick because we're not getting the sufficient amount of rest to make up for the energy loss. AND THEY STILL WANT US TO STUDY.

oh thanks alot. they're deeming me to fail chem. and it's not my fault alarm clocks and me don't go tgt. i just can't wake up. so i'll carry on sleeping. gah forget it. i hope tmr they give us good news man. at least i'm missing SS for sure.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA! (I KNOW YOU READ JUST THAT YOU DON'T TAG TSK!) but anyway hope you enjoyed your birthday today! i'm gonna give you a belated present though sorry! ):

church today. nothing much i guess. the rain was scary. the lightning was so bright and the thunder was so loud O: and it was making me wish i had gone over. sigh. no point thinking about the what-ifs.

so yes two more days! hoping really hard. hahaha my sis told me cassandra's gonna be going on tues to watch the SYF. so i might see her haha!

ohman!

2009-03-25T21:29:00.003+08:00

i'm going quite broke now ): saturday was fish&co. with jingo cos i felt like eating it heh. and her craving for donuts! sunday was SNYS concert. it was alright i guess. hahaha the guy beside danica was sleeping throughout the whole thing. no idea why he came.

and the horns ah. couldn't even reach the high C. can hear towards the end it sort of collapsed? i can't think of the word to describe it now. but yes. hahah according to tiffany, the last horn became 1st horn! hence the playing.

dinner with mag tiffany and her friend at shyokudo (the way tiffany pronounced it was hilarious!) shared tempura omu rice and char-siew spicy ramen with mag. and other food. more money spent on food! hahaha

so this week i'm going quite broke alr ): was feeling angry on monday. stupid annoying thing. but anyway i'm over that alr. free period! was spent talking to cheryl eileen garwai and lynette haha. and i think i passed my annoyance to them over what we were talking about oops

had a headache, my ears were hurting and my throat was hurting too! still had to play during combine though. somehow i managed to survive. and we're so dead. SYF is in less than a week and when no one's playing you can hear A FEW PEOPLE coughing/sneezing/sniffing! that's how sick everyone is. which probably explains why we sounded so horrible ytd haha

so okay today i've officially fallen sick. but not as bad as mag! she better get well before SYF or else we can just not go alr hahaha. actually we all need to get well so yeah.

and i was so depressed during PE :/ dawn said, "it's scientifically proven that left-handers will die faster." i was like WHAT! and then mag told me this, "people that play woodwind instrument will have a shorter lifespan. because of our lungs then we over-exert." i was like WHAT! so that makes it double for me lah. so i'm gonna die very soon. THANKS.

sigh this is really saddening ): but ohwell. it's not like i can help it.

changing seats tmr. i'm gonna miss abigail! her gayness and retardedness. how we can suddenly burst out laughing because of what certain teachers say :D ohoh and how her face turns really red when she laughs too much! haha so yes it was fun. and still can concentrate cos we sit in front so not so bad!

bianca's really hilarious. it wasn't even five minutes, and alr she proved how retarded she is hahahha. i hope she'll pass her cheemness of english and other subjects to me :D

and i shouldn't have walked in the rain, should have taken the roundabout. i ended up sneezing ): but okay alr so yeah haha. just finished tuition. amaths! stupid differentiation. hope i won't screw the test up.

SIGH.

2009-03-20T16:06:00.003+08:00

hahah i just did this quiz that was from melody's lj! i guess it's pretty accurate? for some. took the quiz from danica's blog too. but was too lazy to post it :D

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

so many consecutive days of band. my whole march holidays have revolved around it ): and then tmr from 9-11. SIGH! ytd we sounded better. but today is like we went back down sigh.

and the music room was FREEZING today. ytd it was so hot and today it was so cold O: tsk. missed section lunch today. ohwell another time :D

lit's killing me :/ don't know how to do. and i don't feel like doing alr. gah it's so hard it's annoying. tuition later sigh. need to do chinese tuition homework too. TCH! i haven't been doing heh.

okay starting next week, i'm gonna be a very diligent student! yay.

ultimate!

2009-03-18T19:43:00.002+08:00

flag day today was very funny :D lynette's the ultimate! collect so much. watching her asking people to donate is rather amusing. me and melody were watching from across the street. hahaha

eileen gloria melody and i helped this man cross the road! cos he was carrying so many things. it was quite funny. cos at first eileen and gloria crossed over with him. a while later, he had to cross back! so me and melody crossed over with him. it was so weird. apparently he's in the midst of doing some experiment related to newspapers. bottom line is, we are nice people :D hahaha

subway ytd with danica and vanessa! hahaha and that's when i realised six-inch isn't really enough after almost five hours of band O: but i don't think i would have been able to finish a foot-long. maybe slightly more than a six-inch? heh. we kinda bullied vanessa because we were freezing. so we needed to transfer our heat to her :D

and gah everyone thinks how i chipped my nail was very toot. which i have to agree ): anyway i think i can peel off the nail alr. which means no more weird feeling when playing! :D yay. i wanna stop sounding horrible. stupid clarice haha

yeap i'm robbed of all the time i have ): fifteen and a half hours! which is equivalent to more than five times of the normal three-hour practices O: terrible. but it's only for a while. hopefully it'll be worth it :D

tomorrow till saturday, have to wake up early :/ and i don't think i have time to exercise. there went my effort. DAMN!

gossip girl's back! :D but i think i'll stop watching alr. no more series following! can download, but no watching. i think i can do that :D

first and hopefully the last :D

2009-03-15T21:53:00.006+08:00

took really long to fall asleep, no idea why. woke up to see a message, went back to sleep only to wake up EXACTLY two hours later thanks to my mom's "wake-up call"! haha rushed to meet my parents for lunch.

the hotel's really cool! it's like so high up. the 42nd floor :D the view's really nice too! imagine it at night with all the city lights (rhymes!) but yes. haha my parents were trying to convince me to stay. but i realised i wouldn't want to anyway. cos of my dad hahahah

lunch was good! ate dim sum. and this tofu thingie with oats which was awesome :D i have good taste yay! and my nice dessert. hahaha the price was very nice too. but my parents were like "nevermind it's an experience!" then they said they were gonna eat at the restaurant later at night. WAY TO RUB IT IN!

and they were so retarded. my dad suggested watching the sunrise. then i was like "you can wake up meh!" then he said, "after watching the sunrise, go back to sleep!" hahaha he's so retarded. but they didn't do it in the end

starbucks coffee :D after how long! yay. anyway we were making our way to the IT fair. BUT! IT WAS SO CROWDED! so when we reached the escalators leading up, we turned back hahahah. my dad said i should have taken a picture. the number of people was like WOAH.

went for tuition. had to cab cos it started to rain ): and i was late! after tuition, had to wait for someone to come TSK. while waiting, i saw tiffany! hahaha in her rj uniform. and her friend. "with the curly hair" she kept emphasizing that so weird.

bought food for at night. went to jingo's house. went mad jack's with her dad so we could buy food. her dad is so funny and retarded :D very entertaining. i didn't finish my burger O: but nevermind there was a pig beside me who helped me finish some of it! heh

wished the sj ppl good luck for the comp on sunday :D and yay it worked! haha congrats to them. they're really good! watched ghost whisperer (i know you liked it alot! :D) talked. said things i probably shouldn't have (but still did anyway) slept only at 6plus hahaha. okay more like she slept (being the pig she is). i couldn't really sleep :/

haha and i woke her up oops. then she tried making me sleep. but i still couldn't so yeap. haha sorry you kinda went to the floor for nothing! but thanks for trying anyway :D and also for everything you did.

the day hobbes loses his way and trades places with calvin. how true how true.

anyhow, it was nice and comforting :D i finally understand that feeling hahaha. still went for church afterwards. I FELT SO CHEATED! because my dad had to leave early. so basically we only went in to listen to the sermon. my eyes were closing, but i was still listening, so there :D thank goodness we went late and missed worship. i don't think i would have been able to stand it!

reached home and slept until dinner time. too tired alr. still am so yeah. shall start on everything TOMORROW :D my one and only day to sleep in ):

I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

far longer than forever

2009-03-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

school's ended but i still have to go back to it anyway, with four and a half hours of practice O: i just hope she'll be nice and give us a break in between if not i think i'll just die. ytd was bad enough! made me wanna train myself just so i won't faint from playing. and stop all those gushes of pain to my brain.

ytd was demoralising though. sigh. but after today i'm okay :D at least for band anyway.

18 MORE DAYS! gah.

today really felt like an unlucky day! friday the 13th O: it started on such a bad note. totally ruined my mood. but towards the end it was alright i guess.

oh i just remembered. i like where i'm sitting at right now during combine :D the view's more fun haha.

ohwell for some reason i feel emotionally drained. until there's nothing to feel.

so right now, i just hope i can make it through. sigh i wish i could go back to being a small kid, watching disney shows and even non-disney ones like swan princess. and be an innocent little kid thinking that life is a happy journey.

sadly, life's not like that :/

If only there was such a thing.

):

2009-03-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

amazingly, tuition passed rather fast! O: hahaha not that i'm complaining :D

and the security guard likes to bully me! sigh. ohoh there was this cute small indian boy holding the lift door open. then he asked me "you using?" then i said yah so he came out and let me go in hahaha. i think small kids are really cute. like everything they do is cute. awwww

ohoh. I SEE A POSSESSIVE STREAK IN YOU! hahaha.

my mom was so retarded in the car. "if we're going coffee shop, bring handbag for what!" hahahahha she's awesome :D which is how we landed up at SAFRA. where the songs they were playing were all instrumental versions of pretty old songs. i know cos i can tell hahaha! so me and my dad were like figuring out the songs.

and he was so embarrassing! started singing them really loudly. at least sing softly lah. hahaha. then he said i could continue learning piano if i wanted to during jc. that would be nice :D i want my diploma before i turn 20! that's the only goal i know :/ but yes at least it's a goal.

went to sleep at 2. one of the reasons was cos i was doing homework (i'm a good kid!) and another was because i didn't feel like sleeping. as in seriously if we didn't need to sleep we would have like extra hours to do other things. it's annoying how we need sleep just so we can function.

then there are some days when i wish i could just sleep and never wake up again. then i wouldn't have to be here at all.

said retarded things today, made my sis laugh so much over lunch :D late for church (i'm always late now sigh) didn't understand the teaching today :/ ohwell. back to doing the things on my LIST OF HOMEWORK TO DO.

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that?

?

2009-03-06T23:25:00.007+08:00

concert was...HMM. had so much to say. but i don't intend to say it here. talked on the phone for three over hours on sat night. then talked on the phone with wenjing the next day :D it's been really long! and it was fun hahaha. yes you can do it more often. i just dunno when yet ):

mrs goh praised us during morning assembly :D was happy because i was the one conducting! and yes i know i did almost fine, except for national anthem. clarice said i looked very retarded conducting which made me feel sad after that ): so annoying.

rushed home to mug bio and ss. studied until 1. then i died O: studied somemore in school. and thanks to abigail, at least we got one essay question down tgt! hopefully the same haha. five minutes before the test we were going through that. anyway i'm so glad that's all the tests for this week :D

dissecting pig's eye day! haha it was so retarded. our group's the coolest! eyelash still intact! got the skin too. group picture! jessalyn says my eyes are abit brown. and so did other people. BUT! when i went home to see, it looked black to me! so i dunno haha. OHWELL. melody's one is veryvery brown. it's very nice!

watched he's just not that into you with jingo :D it was alright. but what they teach us ah...TSK. i liked how sweet Neil was! when he asked to marry Beth. aww :D

ohoh lynette told me HER HOUSE HAD A BEE TOO! mine had one on tues. hers had on sat. then she said maybe the bee flew to my house! hahaha take a few days to travel to yishun. so crappy. but yes O: my mom was so brave she killed the bee! use the newspaper then insecticide.
debate ytd. we kinda alr knew at the start who was gonna win. melody and i can make good judges in the future! hahaha. lunch with vivian! :D her hair colour looks the same. but she pointed out the difference then i agreed. we saw jingyi and she said she likes her hair colour haha. then next moment she said she wants to dye red after o levels O:

and why can't reeds be in a nicer colour! it's always the same old red colour. why can't it be cooler colours. like green! or white haha. or purple! must have a variety. anyway need to start practising ):

felt like puking today after morning jog :/ had that retarded rehearsal. the piano's really horrible O: band was the main thing today. and sigh. it was hard. i just hope that next week will be alright. 25more days. it's getting closer now!

and sigh i still don't get why i'm nice to squish! it's all fats ):

it's amazing how the people who aren't close to me read me the best.

these things i'll never say.

2009-02-27T22:12:00.004+08:00

it's so weird, but at the same time it feels so natural.

just realised it's been exactly a week since i blogged O: screwed up my chem test. failed by a freaking half mark! got so annoyed today. and chem was the last lesson of the day THANKS. hahah but then abigail was being really funny! and her face turned red! she claims it's cos her blood was boiling on the inside hahaha. so gay.

on monday, went to eat taco ball with clarice yay :D hahah satisfied one of my cravings alr.

saw a rainbow on wednesday! (: it made me happy. got my sis to take a picture of it. have yet to get it from her. maybe tmr haha. you make me happy, when skies are grey! i can't rmb the title of that song hahahaha. i only know the words.

oh yeah i know i screwed up the chinese test ytd haha! can't be bothered, it's chinese. i took so long to get the passage. sigh and all the late homework i'm piling up. then the maths test, i rushed through it that i don't know if i'll do okay for it ):

hahaha i liked ytd :D basically because i barely sat in for combine! but he was torturing me O: kept making me hold long notes. but from now on, i'm gonna play the higher notes and make sure i can play them. it's annoying not being able to play them!

but then ytd i kept feeling like blacking out too :/ no idea why. maybe lack of oxygen to my brain hahaha. so i had to keep resting. i didn't even know i stayed outside for that long O: but okay lah. i learnt quite abit about him. some of them were quite shocking! but it explains alot hahaha

oh yeah. LUNCH WITH VIVIAN! hahaha see you're in caps :D it was fun catching up with you! we should do it more often. when we have the time (:

and i just rmb something. danica's really clumsy! spilling sodium hydroxide on herself haha. and annoying person who can't make it tmr for brunch TSK!

so, we're performing tmr. "are you excited about it?" from jessalyn. and the answer is really no. it's like ugh. we're not even that good and people are coming to watch O: and we won't even get to watch the other bands! it's so unfair. they forgot to get seats for us like what -.-

and we haven't really concluded if we're gonna scream tmr either! but i hope we do. more fun. then at least we'll be practising. i hope i'll sound fine tmr :/ hope mag won't get too nervous either!

i shall sleep now. so exhausted. need to rest up for tmr! it's gonna take out quite alot. all the tests next week. and homework ): GAH. it's getting harder for me to continue going.

THINGS PEOPLE SAY.

2009-02-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

lately many people have been saying things that make me feel really ego! it's not me, it's them! hahahah. for one, shereen's :D

here's a funny one.

my sis: omg her ears are damn sharp!
mom: don't make her any more ego already!

oh thanks. can you believe my mom said that! but haha i know i'm pro :D she said it cos i figured out the front part of she could be you by shawn hlookoff which is a very nice song. everyone should go listen to it! you can find it on youtube haha. and tch thanks to her, i've been trying to figure it out since wednesday O:

cleo said something on monday during the amaths extra lesson! but i can't really rmb eh. ohwell. haha and jingyi said some things too. and my junior! aww she's gonna miss me :D but FINE i shan't write any here.

anyway, today was the best band session ever! hahah or more like the best squad session we've had. it was good in a sense we got everything off our chest. and the criticizing. and everything else.

"You're such a funny sunny!" -weiping

if you don't get it, TOO BAD. hahahahah today was hilarious. laughed so much. and i didn't find what i said funny! we deserve to sit what why should we stand! then they listen to us talk :D hahaha. but we'll see.

missed the whole of assembly yesterday with jingyi hahaha. but anyway we had permission! cool right :D i liked that, it was fun and nice (: but without you, i'll be miserable at best! actually i don't even think we got to that part cos i couldn't rmb how to play hahaha. ohwell. okay i can't help it. "it's nice listening to you play."

:D see so it's not really my fault hahaha. it's what people say! okay i really should stop. oh sat pracs have been cancelled. i guess it's both good and bad? haha because i cannot play three days in a row. i need a break inbetween!

hahaha my family's watching ghost whisperer now! BUT I'VE WATCHED IT ALR YAY :D

and it's weird how people can think of the same thing at the exact same time.

If I lie here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

valentine's

2009-02-16T20:01:00.003+08:00

valentine's day's presents abound :D hahahah it was nice. wanted to take a picture but then now i'm kinda too lazy to do so. i like abigail's present! it was so cool hahha. so i might take a picture of hers. i can't believe i took so long to realise it said heartey's. SHE MADE IT HERSELF! so typical type C of her hahah

the rehearsal at SCH on saturday brought back memories. i guess they were both good and bad. the nervousness we were feeling before going up, anxiously waiting for the results outside at the place with the vending machines! hahaha. i miss them ): but anyway, let's just hope this year would be just as good, or maybe even better yay :D

the oldies came to my house hahahha. and i was the only kid which felt really weird. ohwell. i went to my room and did my tuition homework hahah. slept at like 1 O:

YE. tuition, which i was so early for O: had to walk under the sun and it was burning my legs! tch. macs for dinner :D OHOH. i found this funny hahaha because my dad wanted to wash the car, so we did.

so everyone knows that now it's all manual work? but last time they had those machines that washed the car! hahaha then i was saying it was more fun last time. and you know what, my sis agreed :D and i'm not being childish okay. it is fun. i still find it fun but sadly they don't use it alr ):

i screwed up today's assembly and i knew it. so i was just standing there, smiling sheepishly and continued conducting haha! alot of people noticed ohman ): okayokay i'll try to go slower haha! although sometimes i find it annoying having to go slow.

oh and i realised lately, many people like saying things that make me feel ego :D haha! i can quote alot of people but i shall be nice and not quote it here.

abigail was so retarded today. she kept singing that song! and amanda started singing too. me and clarice wanted to switch seats and sit beside each other. but then we have also learnt how to tune things out so yeap :D that worked too! and amanda's very funny. hahaha i know i'm polite yay! she was so happy when i said welcome to her.

sigh. i don't know what to think.

You might have me believing I don't always have to be alone.

thankyou! :D

2009-02-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

during PE today we were talking about what type we were. so shereen and weiqing were guessing.

me: okay guess mine!
shereen: erm...S?
lynette: S?! she's not shy at all.
shereen: why not S? she's nice.

HAHA THANK YOU SHEREEN! :D who has just said today that i'm nice. yay hahahhaha. and both of them didn't believe i was D. ohwell. but that's not the main point.

today was hilarious. i laughed so much my voice went hoarse during PE! lynette's too haha.

talked to tiffany today on the phone. hahaha RJ sounds fun. so hmm shall see first :D she's coming back tmr! yay.

weird conversations and what not. IT'S STILL WEIRD. but it's not in a bad way haha.

i think i shouldn't be ego, but ohwell :D thankyou once again to shereen! hahaha.

Confess all the faith that I had in you.

i hate this part.

2009-02-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

motivational workshop from thurs to sat. honestly i don't know what to think. GAH. i have no idea what to think. and it's starting to kill me. unwanted thinkings and what not.

but i guess during the course of those three days i got to know myself better (i hope) like how i'm a type D! hahahah. only 3 percent in the world thankyou very much :D D/C. then i think i have that conflicting S thingie O: haha and i realised clarice is exactly like me! how amusing. gonna make sure i study with her :D oh and how i'm left-right brained but i think i knew that a long time ago.

i was seriously annoyed when i couldn't concentrate when he turned on the music! so i gave up trying to. this is probably like the bad thing about having perfect pitch tch. oh but i guessed the song correctly yay :D if i were a boy! he played the part from the video haha.

and the whole audio learner thingie. i think it's really true! tried on sunday when i went for YE and listened to rev soh's teaching on the holy spirit. i love his teachings man. it's amazing how he closes his eyes and talks and he doesn't need any notes! it's like everything is in his head. and yes i could concentrate :D

tuition after. met shaun on the way! in his army uniform hahaha. i prefer the old one though! and he looks alright without his hair haha. okay tuition. i can't stand that guy omg he came in with a loud KNOCK. and i jumped from my chair cos i got a shock! O: tch.

oh yeah. grandma's birthday dinner. like normal i guess. my cute cute niece! yay. sat beside her and i carried her too :D she's so cute. i was playing with her hahaha.

yay to shushien who got second for the chinese speech thingie :D i think our class is awesome when it comes to us wanting to get our way. proven from today!

watched the curious case of benjamin button with jingo today. i had no idea the movie was so long O: even after you minus the ads it's still about two and a half hours! and it was freezing in there. so thanks for trying to keep me warm even though you were cold too :D

and the baby was so cute! can't stand it. i found the ending sad :/ but then cos it was too long, it was kinda draggy after a while haha. ohwell. i told my dad. and i think i convinced him to bring my mom yay :D cos i think she wants to watch it! heh

my stomach's feeling funny. i should really go for a proper check-up gah.

The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth.

lovely!

2009-02-02T19:26:00.003+08:00

me: I wonder if any parent has thought of naming their child Love.
abigail: oh! haha then maybe they can call their child Lovely! (Love-lee)

and then both of us started laughing. that was on friday. i just had to write it here it was too funny alr! then next line was "if you marry a guy whose surname is lee you must rmb to tell me!" hahaha.

band exchange on saturday at CCHY. saw some pri school people! hahaha then we saw the gay guy. funny memories. heard familiar songs like folklore then me and mag started humming it because we knew it. hahaha even after so long.

we took really long to find the toilet O: had to turn here and there so confusing! ohwell. went back home from there yay :D my sister's friends came over. then had to go for tuition ): finished at 7.30. was starving by the time my parents reached.

sunday was church. and i guess the songs got to me. and maybe the teaching. gah i dunno. ikea after that :D we were too hungry alr. bought a new mirror for our room haha! "it's like those princess kind of mirrors where you open and see a mirror!" when my sis is being really retarded haha.

today had that really weird CME lesson with all the annoying questions and i didn't like answering some. but yes i really wanna design my own house. it's gonna be so cool :D amanda agrees with me it'll be cool too! haha

i promised i'd stay back today and i did. but then she wasn't there so actually i could have left. ohwell! i think i screwed up the maths test had different answers from lynette ):

but ohwell nvm alr. i have new scores to play so i'm happy :D just need to play it smoothly throughout then it's okay.

got so many comments, both good and weird, about my new specs haha ohwell. Y'ALL WILL GET USED TO IT!

and this is annoying. i have nothing to watch ): watched everything alr.

inkheart :D

2009-01-28T18:00:00.003+08:00

went to yishun christian church on sunday cos we were too lazy to travel so early in the morning to our church! service was alright the sermon title was HOPE FOR HOPELESSNESS. and suddenly i got reminded of 4hope hahaha. so so retarded.

i've finished watching my shows so currently i have nothing to watch aka no more distractions. gossip girl is getting sad man! but i'm looking forward to the next episode haha. wanna see what blair's gonna do :D

mon went to visit people. went to my grandma's, where alot of people came! haha then we left for my first aunt's house (weird to call her that in eng but ohwell) and i saw my niece! yay

cropped my mom's face out cos she say you wanna take should have taken me with her! tsk that's my mom for you.

ANYWAY. she looks way cuter when she smiles. but she wasn't smiling when we took this. but yes she's reallyreally cute! she doesn't like me to carry her though ): apparently she only likes fleshy people hahaha

went to my second aunt's house after that! went with our other cousins and family. and played with the dog :D hahaha and he sneezed! i think it's cute when dogs sneeze. then we left after a while for dinner and ate at my dad's secret love!

went to watch inkheart ytd! it was good :D silvertongue hahah. and i kinda expected the daughter to inherit his ability too. but it was alright. i love the grandaunt! she's so funny :D amanda went to watch ytd too! and yes she agrees it's nice yay. she got a shock when i said i watched it ytd too. then i said no don't worry my parents only go yishun when it comes to this. they don't like to travel. ohwell better than nothing!

went to alethea's house after that to visit :D haha played wii! the super mario race thingie and i'm very scared for my sis now! but still, i hope she passes on her first try haha. then we played guitar hero. we were singing along while playing. it was fun :D then we ate dinner. hilarious

watched the 7pm show. then serves you right which was quite dumb. then we went home.

stomach's been feeling weird the whole day. and it kinda still does ): then now i feel damn hot even after taking a cold bath. i'm hoping it's really because of the weather.

:D

2009-01-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

band prac ytd was awesome! mainly because we barely combined :D cos we had a tutor! okay i don't really think he's a tutor. cos he's only like 19. and i don't think his name is pung. so yes the next time we're gonna ask him what's his real name! hahah and he's quite cute too. then percussion section call him "macdonalds delivery guy!" think it was cos he was wearing a red t-shirt

and apparently he stirred excitement in the mpr1 ytd when he popped his head in? haha so retarded. and i know what lijie's thinking! hahahah

i think the duet was retardedly funny. but quite fun lah. at least it was something new! compared to the usual pieces O: we ended late. was too tired to do much homework

and so this morning! this was what happened

"did you finish maths homework?"
"i tried until i was too tired."
"did you do chem structured?"
"nope."
"did you finish bio SPA worksheet?"
"nope. gonna copy from dawn!"

i think at this point i was alr like omg eileen hi-five! hahahha so retarded. last one

"ohmygod have you started on the 8 baozhangbaodaos?"
"no! hahahah hi-five!"

yeah that's how much we haven't done. not bad right. it was so retarded. but yes intend to complete them. shall stop lagging behind :D

abigail was being so gay today. hahaha but then again, she's gay every day! and provides me with entertainment haha. that's what i wrote in her birthday card. then she said she's gonna get me a meaningful present for my birthday. i wonder what! i know my birthday's over alr but she said she wants to get me a meaningful one so okay? haha

tuition today after band prac. yes i practised today :D guess i need to practise more. and good after changing the instru sandy sounds better now. so now got more hope! i want both of them to get in for syf loh. it's their only syf!

left early had tuition ): but yes at least no homework. i chionged that compo question during class and left hahahha. came back and started sneezing so annoying! but i'm fine now :D math tuition tmr. i'm gonna ask him to teach me geometrical proofs. i hate that chapter O:

yay

2009-01-21T19:53:00.012+08:00

I GOT WENJING'S CARD ON 17JAN! :D hahaha. see the US$1? so retarded. so yes it did sort of arrive on time. abit one day late but it's okay. haha i was happily reading it at night. and there's my pooh bear beside the card.

my sis wanted to take this. i was at j8! O: but okay loh haha.

did i mention that every kid i saw was looking at pooh bear! like they wanted it too ): awww. they can always ask their parents to buy haha.

so i had math and chinese tuition on saturday. chinese was :/ but i'm over that alr. i think. ohwell.

monday was compre test. nothing much. i conducted too fast! hahah for national anthem. it was freezing okay. then i was like HECK get it over and done with. amath after school was kinda pointless. no teacher so my tutor was clarice and nicolette! yay. oh and dawn for the first question of am1 haha.

went back with jingyi. who came over to my house. didn't have the mood to go out, so she still owes me a treat :D finished amath homework that day haha. then her mom came to pick her up. and it's weird, but her mom calls me nat o.O

tuesday was hilarious. the marching outside. i was trying hard not to laugh. but it was really too funny! hahaha. like how we marched out of time. eh but clarice said i marched in time. i know i did :D but still it was retarded.

and i think we should change the set piece. at the most choose people who can play! then we'll still have a chance of getting gold. if not, FORGET IT MAN. i would rather not take part.

today after lit test was shopping :D hahaha i know eileen's jealous! it was alright. my sis finally bought her skirt. so i guess she's happy now. and i think my mom's the nicest person in the world haha!

i guess i shouldn't be slacking. but i'm very tempted to watch one epi of either ghost whisperer or gossip girl. see first :D
if you could turn back time
would you have made different choices?
would you still be living in regret?

16 on 16 :D

2009-01-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

sweet 16 on 16 january. how cool is that! :D

anyway today was great! okay no actually it wasn't all great. i guess today was rather emotional. all the weird hormones stuff O:

thanks to gar wai! for the cake and card :D it's been fun knowing you. you pervert! but i still love you anyway.

thanks to jingo for the letter! i still like the drawing anyhow. it's nice :D i love you you tootie! <3

thanks to recess people! <3 eileen, giok, gloria, june, lynette, melody for celebrating with me during recess. the cake and the huge winnie the pooh! hahaha. i know many people have squished it alr.

thanks to wenjing for calling me all the way from america! thanks for everything toot <3 i really miss you alot!

thanks to my section who got me a cake even if it was very last minute. thanks for being so retarded! like today during lunch. where they lighted the candles and the wind was blowing. then they went "OMG FASTER BLOW OR IT'LL BLOW OUT ALREADY!!" scream so loud. then the exco people were a few tables in front and i think they were staring at us hahah. but aww thanks anyway :D and we have become more civilised this year yay.

and thanks to the people who sent messages to me! rachel, melody, sheena, rachael, dionne (with her suay happy! hahahha), tiffany, gar wai, vivian, mag, yanjun, gloria, jayme, jingyi, li en, grace then, my sis!, giok, aikching, june, michelle, shu en, michelle teo, joanna, my cousin, my bro, christine, chows, alethea.

thanks to everyone in 4hope for the card! and the birthday wishes. haha and to my tablepartner ABIGAIL. who was so gay and retarded today! it was hilarious. she was just oh-so-gay today! must be cos she was too tired. but yes lessons after recess were really funny. i kept laughing thanks to her. esp. during chem ahahhaha. and her cloud 9 thingie! and the OMMPMM! hahaha. i said i'll blog about her and i have! just not in detail because i can't rmb the exact details alr haha

lastly, my family :D even though it started out with me feeling really annoyed. to the point i was hugging my pooh bear really tightly. and oh no i'm starting to call him like how mag does! O: but yes. it was all good in the end. shopping! yay. and my sis was sad because she won't be able to wear the dress. it's the first one she can't wear! while the rest we still can share haha.

OH. i saw charlyne and jia ee at junction8 today! haha or more like they saw me. then they saw pooh bear and wanted to bring him home! awww. anyway talked to them for awhile then they left alr.

came back and cut cake. haha might put pictures up tmr. i'm tired alr. oh yeah in all i had three cakes. which probably explains my throat now ): sigh.

:D

2009-01-14T21:09:00.004+08:00

five people didn't come school today O: we were all like woah. haha then we were thinking "did they really all fall sick at the same time!" but okay for some they really did. then others got valid reason. but yay eileen's coming back tmr :D haha lynette was so funny when we called her.

anyway i screwed up the chem test. guessed my way through some of the questions. and the freaking coke thingie. should have paid attention when sharon asked her question ):

ohwell. with that aside, today was the first time i had lunch with gar wai! hahaha. with only her. so retarded! then we talked about random things. it was fun :D

headache on my way home :/ i'm presuming it's the weather that's doing this to me. one moment cold, then next moment hot. SIGH.

and according to yiinghuey, i have a few potential juniors! hahahah and the one i saw ytd quite toot. so shld be okay lah huh. if she really joins. and i know how to teach loh tch.

TWO DAYS MORE :D but somehow i don't really feel anything. ohwell. till then (:

oh yeah. i rewarded myself by watching ONE episode of gossip girl :D and the episode was sweet! haha like omg. i think blair and chuck is quite nice to watch now. and her lines are hilarious. esp. the part when she saw dan and serena back together. i paused it just to laugh! my sis couldn't control too and started laughing haha.

so yes. it's nice. except for that one sad part which is coming in the next epi. SIGH.

?

2009-01-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

The year has barely begun and already I can't seem to take it. But I'm gonna try to be strong, no more crying. Time to focus. And maybe, just maybe, I'll make it through.

bad day today ): i guess i shouldn't write about it. but i just had to get it out. and thanks to all the people who were just being there. no words, just walking with me. because the more people try to comfort you, the worse it gets. ohwell.

and as for the quote on jingyi's blog! so out of context you annoying shits. i only said that because she woke me up with her sms! sheesh.

okay. time to study. i've decided that for this year, i'm gonna study real hard. even if that means getting lesser sleep. because actually i can still seem to cope. study hard equals good results. and yay to michelle who did very well :D i'm so happy for her hahaha.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more

first week

2009-01-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

okay i just watched the five minutes of the little nyonya and OMG IT'S SO STUPID! like what kind of rubbish is that. i thought it was some alternate ending then they'll get together, but no! it's just to say that they always have each other in their hearts and blahblahblah. and to thank the viewers for watching hahahah. so rubbish

now i'm done with that. i shall talk about my first official week back in school!

monday. all the test dates came one by one. "now you know school has really started!"

how true. monday's chinese extra lesson was a waste of time. so annoying! could have gone home and studied for maths or actually done homework. sheesh. watched last episode of little nyonya that day! yes it's important hahaha. but the ending was kinda sucky. ohwell. now that that's over, no more distractions!

tues back to band. ended late like what shit. can't really rmb what happened. only rmb feeling dizzy cos the sun was coming in through the windows and we were facing the sun. plus the music room was freaking hot O:

first official maths test on wed. which i couldn't finish in time ): then again alot of people couldn't, even clarice! shocker. subway for lunch! with cleo and melody. funny :D and yes barley mixed with sprite is nice! haha. first jap lesson of the year. and was so demoralised cos i didn't understand what she was saying ): and i'm contradicting myself cos i'm sad. i think i'll quit cos really no point if i don't understand. SIGH. sadsadsad. i'm sorry rachel! my jap partner for so long. but don't worry you have jialing melody weishan and the rest! ahhh i'm gonna miss the rgs people too. they're so funny.

thurs. band again. so annoying. my life is gonna revolve around it until it's all over. to think it's gonna be four days a week -.- lessons were alright. having gar wai sitting across the aisle is actually quite funny! :D oh and it was so weird on thurs! after bathing i came out feeling itchy. and the weird thing was jingo was feeling itchy too! hahahah it's so weird. and her reasons are damn retarded.

friday was mom's birthday :D went to hongkong cafe to eat. was in quite a bad mood though. annoyed. not to mention how the whole day i felt like puking, probably due to the lack of sleep. SIGH. first week of school and already i can't seem to take it ):

cca fair ytd. i guess it's fun conducting grease :D esp. if you don't care yay. but yes clarice FINE! and for all you people who missed it, TOO BAD! there's no more chance alr hahahahhaha. don't be sad :D

was really tired, so i cancelled tuition. couldn't take it last night. sigh. but i'm alright alr. and i missed church today ): and i guess i shouldn't have read the fic ytd. but then i did and come to think of it, it's so horribly true :/

more tests to study for. not sure what to expect. results tmr. i hope it'll be alright ): and hopefully, i'll be strong enough. because honestly, i'm really scared. my mom told me just now in the cab "whatever the result, i want you to tell me straight away! don't do anything stupid!"

which reminded me where i got that line from hahahah. okay not really but yeah.

Honestly, I don't know if I can make it.

lunch!

2009-01-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

first day back in school on fri! haha it was quite alright. i was right! no proper lessons. and they did give us a pep talk :D or prep talk. oh and we're changing seats. I'M GONNA SIT WITH ABIGAIL! who is really really gay haha

then we have that angel and mortal thingie. haha i haven't bought or written anything yet though O: maybe tmr.

had a headache on that day. stupid sudden change of weather. from raining to sunny! i was right about it raining too haha. freaky!

my parents are starting to get worried. they were like "If you still get headaches for no reason, I think we better send you for a thorough brain scan!"

ohwell. i'm kinda thinking i'll get some illness cos i'm always having weird health problems haha.

tuition ytd. suddenly had a cold. took meds and got drowsy only when i was having tuition -.- retarded. went back home. took a nice long walk to and from tuition :D

lunch today with sec4 church ppl :D at ikea. it was fun. haha retarded and funny. we should have more outings like this! we were late for YE. but nvm lah huh. haha wrote our new year resolution. i wrote mine alr. and i hope i stick to it.

i'm gonna try, no matter what.

undo by rush of fools

2009-01-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

I've been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become

2009.

2009-01-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

happy new year everyone! school starts tmr on a freaking friday ): i'm too lazy to talk about the past, but since it's already in the past, i shall leave it there :D

anyway time for new year resolutions. hahah i don't even know if i'll be able to keep them

1. I'm gonna stop being so last minute and finish my homework on time!

don't know if that's possible but shld be can lah huh. sec4 alr.

2. STOP GETTING DISTRACTED!

stupid stupid computer. like now. and gossip girl and ghost whisperer and heroes and many many more. only watch when i'm done with everything i need to do!

3. Obviously, must study hard.

sigh! must try. and be as smart as my bro! yay. (even though i think it's impossible O:)

4. Lose weight!

hahah i need to lose weight ): but i hate running! this is so annoying. and yes i deceive everyone who see me, except for ppl who know about my hidden fats like cleo and jingyi haha!

5. Be nicer to people.

this one's abit hard! hahahah but yes i will try to be nicer. i'll think before i say things, so i won't hurt people without knowing.

yeah i guess those are the main things. okay start of me being sec4! i don't feel any different. but yes. and i hope i won't break down or freak out or anything. i'm gonna psycho myself to study :D

and most importantly, i pray that God will give me the strength i need to make it through this year. it won't be easy, but i'll do my best.

You're the only one
Who can undo what I've become

on the second day of christmas,

2008-12-29T11:01:00.004+08:00

the day after christmas was spent with pri6 ppl, most of whom i haven't seen for ages! haha and wenshen's so tall now! he's 183 O:

then me and ziheng were like, "when you talk to him must stand at a distance!" which is really true! haha. anw talking to them was quite alright. had sushi buffet :D haven't eaten sushi in quite a while alr. grabbing so much food when we didn't even know what they were. then dunno who said just try everything! hahah.

i don't think i ate alot, but there's something about sushi that makes you full really fast. and i regret not talking to them for so long. esp. the guys. heard some gossip from them! haha hopefully i'm in the same jap class as her. so i can ask her :D

left early to meet jingo to watch movie. i was late. and it's her fault haha. never leave earlier to buy the tickets. it was sold out O: we wanted to watch the one at 7, but the seats were sucky. so we walked to the cathay! haha but they were sold out too! so annoying. went to plaza sing but the seats were selling out fast. and the queue was long. i hate queuing!

so no movie that day ): travelled to thomson to eat prata at the prata house :D didn't eat alot, didn't feel so well. i think it's cos of the raw stuff i ate! maybe not fresh haha. i have no idea how to tell though. ohwell.

then i saw someone that looks like huishan! with the dimples and everything. i told jingyi. haha we wanted to see if it's really her so we started calling her.

jing: huishan! (no response)
jing: no response leh.
me: her eyes flickered up!
jing: okay you try.
me: HUISHAN! (still no response)
jing: okay i know.

then she pulled out her phone and call her! haha that's quite smart (don't get all ego!). and huishan really answered haha! it was so funny.

went to her house after that. i missed my 9pm show! ): which reminds me, I STILL HAVEN'T WATCHED IT! my mom's so funny. she's so polite! then in her sms she was like "so i hope my children grow up to be like me!" something like that. haha so retarded.

ate ice-cream in the middle of the night, made bread with blackcurrant jam cos i was too hungry alr, and watched ghost whisperer until 6.30 the next day! O: haha amazingly we didn't feel tired. then went to sleep. jingo slept comfortably for awhile, but i didn't. tch. my shoulder's sore! haha

haha but okay eventually i did sleep, slept more than her and i didn't even know. went back home (i got a cab in less than 5 minutes! :D) haha and i managed to use up alot of my coins yay. bathed but i didn't sleep. but i slept at 11plus that day. and woke up at 11 the next day! haha my mom shouted from the kitchen to get me to wake up :/

went to church. service was really short! we ended at like 5.10, not that it's a bad thing. weird but good :D haha then went with my sis to visit her class. they're so cute! and i'm gonna rmb their names now haha. joel and stuart! joel's really cute. when he saw me he smiled haha. i guess if all kids are cute i wouldn't mind teaching them :D

ate at kfc O: obliged my bro.

"i'm leaving soon! so my word is law."

what rubbish! but fine. went popular to buy things. then went home. i'm gonna make new specs soon. not sure what colour i wanna get though. i'll see when i get there :D

today's my parents' wedding anniversary :D failed attempt to make a cake though. my sis woke me up and went "eh i'm not baking a cake already. there's not enough eggs!"

haha so funny. then i went back to sleep. that's quite sad. so i guess we'll make do with buying one for them. and if my bro could drive, we could have booked a place for them to go eat. then he could drive them there! but anyway he's gonna be out the whole day so also cannot.

haha oh yeah my sis has wild child on her laptop. gonna watch :D hopefully there'll be more :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS (:

2008-12-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i slept at 2 O: haha lynette's message was so retarded. always having horny thoughts! tsk. went down to church for the christmas service. my bro was in the choir! then there was this one part where can hear him very clearly. haha so cool. we wanted to video but too blur

so after worship came the sermon. THE SERMON WAS IN CHINESE! O: okay i can understand chinese, but to hear it for a sermon? that's torture. and the preacher was quite rude. my sis thinks she's very proud of her chinese heritage that's why MUST preach in chinese. at least there was a translator, but i think there are alot of other ppl who can translate better than her haha. she kept going erm... and had pauses here and there

oh then there was the dance :D haha caleb looked so cute! he was the only guy dancing. and obviously he did breakdancing too. then at the part where the music changed to the folk dance kind of style, yeah i found that part of the dance cute haha.

went back after the service. nothing much i guess. then we ended up arguing with each other. but by the end of the day it was alright alr.

and despite it being christmas, this year's wasn't a very happy one for me ): sigh.

watched don't forget the lyrics. it's annoying how they don't sing the songs you want them to. but it's their choice. and my family noticed something at the end of the show haha.

oh and before i forget, my bro has good taste in music :D most of the time. haha i have nice songs on my ipod now! i guess whether the artist is well-known or not doesn't really matter now. as long as they're good :D which they are.

in another life by the veronicas

2008-12-23T18:23:00.002+08:00

I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life
In another life...

movies :D

2008-12-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

dinner at grandma's house last night after church. to celebrate the winter new year or something. dong zhi! yes. haha then had to watch soccer O: and my dad reacted so loudly! he shouted GOAL! but actually never haha. but yes we went home at 9plus :D

watched twilight today with vivian :D at cineleisure. haha it was alright. but the book is better. and she treated me today! cos she owed me money haha. popcorn! thanks :D haha and we both agree the girl's actually quite pretty. after you see a few times then you'll find her pretty haha.

i quote vivian "she's very hot!" hahahhahaha. but from some angles she looks abit like emma watson! and i realise why she looked familiar. cos she acted in other movies. like the messengers.

then after that met my sis to watch angus, thongs & perfect snogging. haha it was nice! and the guy's good-looking :D it was funny too. then at the ending when she came down in a dress alot of ppl in the theatre went woah. then ppl laughed. it's quite amusing haha.

then when i came home i watched eight below. which is so cute! the dogs are so cute. and so sad. two of them died? or is it one. i'm not sure. but yes. haha they're really cute :D

and sigh. tmr is gonna be a really really long day. don't know if i'll still have the energy after band ):

KL (just to escape singapore) :D

2008-12-20T17:42:00.019+08:00

okay so i went KL for five days. we didn't really do much.

taken when we first arrived at the hotel. boulevard hotel! where there's a MEGAMALL! haha it's like below the hotel. cool right :D

"even when it's raining, you can still go and shop!" quoted from some review for the hotel haha. my mom kept using it.

i love eating pretzels :D except for the part where you look really unglam eating it. but it's nice! haha ate it only on the first day though. anyway singapore has it too so it's alright!

DMAN!

it's quite funny. haha we played uno and kept scores. see my awesome score :D haha but then i lost in the end. kept getting so many points after that O: end of first day.

second day! swimming in the morning. haha the pool's really small. two laps equals to one lap in the normal pool

gelato ice-cream. haha we felt quite bad cos the guy let us try so many flavours because we were being so indecisive! but at least his efforts paid off. cos we bought :D haha three flavours. exactly one-third of the cup. so cute. haha then i put one spoon on each flavour for fun before my sis snapped the picture :D

the green one is apple starfruit, red is strawberry something then the orange one is orange and carrot. the orange and carrot was actually not bad! haha they're all nice :D

shopped at the MEGAMALL! haha didn't buy much though. and besides the prices are more or less the same, not much difference. ohwell.

haha they changed the design! when we first arrived it was something else. but anyway this is nicer :D it says merry christmas & happy new year! haha you can see popeye and olive. oh and i think some of them can move! cos one of the guys at the front pressed for us to see haha.

watched a few movies in the hotel. can't rmb which days. either tues or wed. watched the longest yard! which was quite alright, even if it was about football. adam sandler! haha. then we watched bridge to terabithia too. and i found it really sad! cos the girl died ): so sad. then the guy was so angry and stuff. that she died then he blamed it on himself. BUT, in the end he brought his younger sister to the place. haha i found it nice that they fell for each other :D even though she did die. but yeah

then watched like the ending of one missed call. a horror film which is really dumb! i don't see what's so scary about it. i was just thinking that the girl looks very fake. haha and the ending was stupid. and the guy died! cos he got stabbed in the eye haha

the christmas tree at the hotel. haha the staff at the hotel decorate really fast O:

this is some weird piece of art that is all around the hotel. and i'm sorry, but i don't really know how to appreciate art! haha. it's like some piece of ball. then for the different paintings around the hotel different colours are used. but it's the same art! haha

travelled to another mall on the third day. suria KLCC if i rmb correctly. bought more stuff there. but actually over there i bought mostly bottoms O: one more jeans on the way! if i can find it here :D that's what i realised after my whole trip there. haha so i need to buy alot of tops here. SOON!

petronas twin towers. haha we didn't queue to go in. crazy must wake up so early just to queue. unfortunately i'm not that kind :D i'm the sleep-in kind of person! yay.

if you wanna die, you can go there and die of lung cancer :D so many people smoking! then i kept saying, "I WANNA DIE!" hahaha.

my sis was being so random man! haha it looks my mom is smiling to the camera when she turned behind. and the second one. was helping my dad take a picture with the fountain. HE IS SO FUSSY MAN! must take just when the water comes out, do you know how hard that is! O:

fourth day! haha we went swimming again. ohman i think i got darker alr. okay actually i'm very sure i did get darker. cos i can see the tan line! ohwell. then went back to MEGAMALL. haha did some final shopping. yeah.

we watched bolt! haha movie tickets are really cheap there man. you can even watch two movies and it'll be the price of one here! how nice is that. haha but we only watched one movie. and it was funny and cute :D i kinda preferred mittens and rhino. rhino was hilarious! me and my sis quoted from the movie and started saying the lines. funny!

haha i like bolt when he was a puppy :D the older one is just retarded. but overall it was okay. kept laughing throughout the movie.

last day. ate our last breakfast. haha i had a headache on that day ): it hurt alot. took panadol. was really cranky. so i slept in the cab when we were on the way to airport. and it was freezing on the plane even though i was wearing a jacket! sheesh. but my mom found it cold too so i'm normal :D

so yeap. that's how my trip went. it's really just to get away from singapore! haha. okay. movies soon :D i'm looking forward to vivian treating me! haha

I'M BACK :D

2008-12-19T20:49:00.005+08:00

I'M BACK FROM KL!

yes that's all you need to know. because i'm really lazy to post about my trip right now. maybe tmr.

i'm not gonna post now because i'm really screwed. haven't done my maths tuition hw and it's in the morning! sigh ):

haha vivian just went offline. and she was being so retarded! she currently has a craze of looking at female celebs like nicole richie O: selena gomez, drew barrymore, miley cyrus blahblahblah. and i agree with wenjing! don't rly like her either hahhaha. so vivian has bad taste in music :D

missed so many days of tv ): and suite life on deck! sigh. their voices broke alr hahahah. but homework first. i think i'll be really tired tmr. i'm hungry now :/ shall find food later.

and it's nice to know that someone missed me alot :D

on the upside :D

2008-12-14T22:10:00.004+08:00

I'M FLYING OFF TMR! to kl. haha giok's message was very funny. but thanks :D

fri was buying books day. but my dad didn't wrap my books so i guess i'm not bringing ss over to read. saw some ppl in school. finished reading breaking dawn alr :D it was alright.

was late in meeting jingo. SORRY! ): haha island creamery and then to her house. now cleo's not the only one who knows where my fats are O: but it's so obvious anw. ohwell. then i went home really late and got scolded. it wasn't even that late.

woke up with my tummy hurting and weirdly my neck too. think it was my own fault. then had tuition in the morning ): couldn't watch movie in the end! sigh. can't rmb much about what happened. i rmb eating dinner outside. but i can't rmb where. ohwell!

today was spent in church. haha oh we finally ate at pizza hut :D after what seems to be ages! i guess it was cos it was 4 against 1. us against my dad! hahahha. it was quite alright. ate that christmas special or something. then we went to ntuc! where i saw someone that really looked like michelle. tiffany's friend. but i'm not very sure. so nvm.

i've been freezing the whole day. and it's still like that. cold cold cold. and my nose is annoying me. only the fan's on. imagine the air-con later O: but at least there's a nice quilt covering me :D

ahhhhhh i really hope melody's tickets are still available when i come back! i wanna watch movie with her. angus, thongs and perfect snogging! and haha i wouldn't mind sneaking in to watch a nc16 movie with her. cos we can beg the person to let us in :D so i guess sometimes there are upsides being born in january :D ohwell. maybe we shld watch a nc16 movie next year! without having to sneak in :D

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather

movie!

2008-12-11T18:07:00.002+08:00

lynette's confirmation on sunday. saw alot of ppl there! haha i saw chengmei! but too bad she wasn't wearing a dress. lynette looked really nice :D krystal too! and GUESS WHAT! her confirmation name is natalie. haha cool right? must be cos of me :D hahahah

there were alot of ppl. mostly from our class. haha like amanda ann dawn dionne eileen and others. from our school. haha it was quite alright. dionne was funny. "where's troy? calling for troy!"

dinner with dionne and eileen at thomson plaza's food court. haha cos dionne was pretty broke. then went back.

monday was shit. and if i had blogged on monday then yeah, but i'm okay alr so heck.

i cleared my room ytd :D okay not really cleared my room. but the floor's quite empty alr! so yeah.

today! was out with sec1 ppl. haha namely, amanda, jingwen, krystal and rachael. the rest who we asked couldn't make it. ohwell. we actually wanted to go bowling, but then we all sucked at bowling so we went back to lot1. haha to watch a movie! but the cinema sucks. there were only three movies O:

haha then amanda came. then we travelled to woodlands. causeway point. watched the day the earth stood still. keanu reeves! :D haha but it was quite a stupid show. ohwell. anyway it wasn't our money so...IT'S OKAY. haha we're gonna split the rest to the other ppl. we're not that mean :D we're awesome!

this is annoying my phone's alr dying O: haha i guess today was alright. laughed alot. movies are wasted on rachael! tsk.

what if you jump?
and just close your eyes?

i wish.

out!

2008-12-07T13:50:00.002+08:00

went out with vivian on friday :D haha to novena square! which according to her, was her first time there haha! walked around abit cos we were deciding what to eat. finally settled on fish&co. :D haha she's so retarded. then we just talked. catch up after so long. and her new hair!

i think we stayed in there for quite long. no one came to clear our plates either! so just sit there and talk. then when they did come and clear, asked for the bill. then cos they'll give sweets, vivian dropped hers on the floor. haiyoh so wasted.

then went to make the t-shirt. haha we were walking around then suddenly we saw this shop. then we realised it's the shop to make t-shirts! so we went in. and i have to say, it's quite ex. loh. 18bucks for one O: and vivian made three. but she managed to pay lesser so not so bad.

walk around some more but we left quite soon because novena square has very little things. but i noticed they have alot of ice-cream places :D then we were going home alr. BUT! vivian didn't have money in her ez-link O: hahaha then it was damn retarded afterwards. she and her sister ah! the conversation was funny.

but after the whole thing, she now owes me like 8 or 9 bucks haha. went to meet my mom afterwards. did abit of shopping, and window-shopping. in preparation for the next day! haha. ate at pizza hut :D but i wasn't very hungry. we still managed to finish though. amazing right. my mom was very hungry haha.

went home after that. i caught up with my reading for eclipse. yesyes i know i'm very slow. but i will finish reading alright!

shopped ytd. was quite annoyed after that. but i can't stay angry at my sis for long. so yeap. ate b&j :D while watching dead's man chest! haha and i still find the fighting scene very funny. even though i've watched before.

my bro is back! haha fetched him from the airport. then by the time i came hope it was like 12.30. his flight got delayed by like two hours? haha then went to sleep. or tried to. ended up reading. cos i couldn't sleep. so kept reading eclipse. and it's so weird that i couldn't sleep. cos in the day i kept yawning and wanted to sleep. then at night cannot sleep -.- but not as bad as vivian who i really think has insomnia alr! so i slept at like 2 in the end. haha and i slept in today. excusable :D

i have new songs now :D not really new. but songs i've heard and liked but never bothered to get. so now i've got them. so yay!

lynette's confirmation is today! haha which i'm going for later. wonder how theirs will be. but i guess it'll be quite similar to mine haha

marché

2008-12-04T11:49:00.003+08:00

finished true blood! there is definitely gonna be a season 2. which is good yay :D just don't know when it'll come out. ohwell. and i finished the book i bought on monday. blue blood! haha and i was kinda annoyed it's a series. means i won't know what's gonna happen! :/ sigh. hopefully i can find the next book soon.

haha went marché ytd for my sister's birthday :D and she was being so retardedly annoying. but aww. haha and there's a reason why we're related. cos we never looked at the prices when we bought our food! hahahha.

and i felt like such a pig. cos i ate the most O: i ate two dishes. haha and i bought two drinks cos there were three flavours then buy all and try :D nothing wrong what. and partly cos i helped my sis buy. haha

overall it was okay. haha then we tried taking picture in front of the really huge christmas tree, but it was still too dark. ohwell! and my dad didn't bring his camera. haha we were being quite retarded O: but nvm.

then went back home. cut cake! haha then it was really cool cos when the candles were lit! you could see in the camera screen the heat the candles gave out. it was like blue lines. hahah but when you take the picture then don't have lah. mango mousse cake :D

nothing much after that. just watched heroes ep10 :D they all lost their powers cos of the eclipse! haha. waiting for more yay. and books. have a lot of reading to catch up on!

happy birthday (:

2008-12-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

i saw a lot of people today! O: i saw esther at orchard, then i saw my cousin and a guy from my church at amk hub! so weird. but no i didn't say hi to the latter two. too weird. to my cousin maybe okay lah. but he didn't see me! so yah loh.

and i feel very stupid. went out of the wrong exit again! i always can't rmb which side is which. THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME! and i probably sound very dumb here, but they really do look the same! ohwell.

bought a new book. blue bloods! it's weird how all the books i've been looking at recently are related to vampires o.O read abit while WAITING FOR SOMEONE. haha but it rained the moment you reached, which was quite funny :D

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGO! don't know if you'll see this. but yeah. haha you've finally turned 15! :D after so long.

i know you love me :D haha! and welcome. even though yeah it was shopping for your food. which is damn hard to buy because you ppl are so restricted! tsk.

watched two epis of heroes. haha it's getting quite interesting :D ghost whisperer was earlier on. haha now i don't feel sad. and i think my bro's damn gay! he was like "i don't feel like watching ghost whisperer ep6! so sad. haha"

he's so retarded! he's coming back on the 6. my mom's retarded too! she was like "let's make a banner saying welcome home!" hahahha. his first word would very likely be lame. hopefully can watch true blood tmr. need to pack my room soon :/

-

2008-11-30T17:49:00.003+08:00

went out with brenda ytd :D haha it's been quite a while!

ate taco ball :D was hungry. haha then looked around so many art shops for veryvery long. walked until we were so tired! got backache somemore haha. oh and we ate ice-cream too :D i like raspberry ripple.

sorry and thankyou! hahah for walking around with me for so long. and talking :D we were both actually very tired. me having math tuition earlier on (not enough sleep), and her finishing camp. haha then went back for dinner.

watched cheaper by the dozen 2! which was funny :D kept laughing. and there were quite a number of familiar ppl who acted in that movie. then nothing much. couldn't help thinking.

went to the church opposite my house today. only knew two songs from worship! sigh. lunch at xin wang. which was alright. watched two epis of ghost whisperer today. and i cried :/ cos he died! which is so sad. but he went inside another guy's body. so yeap.

my dad still isn't back ): hope he comes back tmr.

i'm sorry.

genting!

2008-11-28T18:20:00.004+08:00

HELLO I'M BACK!

didn't tell many ppl i left anw. but yeap five days spent in genting. i guess it was quite alright :D

Day 1

reached school early in the morning at around seven plus. sigh my section got split up :/ so we were with the brasses. it was barely five minutes in the bus when BAM! everyone flew forward. and we got into an accident. haha basically it's cos a taxi wanted to go into the bus lane. and then the taxi banged into us! haiyoh.

so we had to wait for quite a while for a replacement bus. way to start a trip! played cards, slept, ate at yong peng O: reached the hotel, checked in. had dinner and watched the opening ceremony. they told us to mingle around and stuff. then okay loh. debrief! and slept because competition was the next day.

couldn't really sleep though. cos some people took up so much space on the bed! hahaha

Day 2

rehearsal in the morning. horrible O: but when it came to the actual thing, we actually sounded okay! o.O like no obvious mistakes. ohwell. indoor themepark after that! :D haha it was quite fun. we sat the roller coaster. mag kept going omg! i was screaming for fun. haha then we went to watch the 4D show. wearing the 4D-glasses made my eyes really painful. headache ): the show was ali baba! which was kinda hard to understand. so the ride was quite boring. ohwell!

bumper cars next! haha it was mag's first time. so me, danica and vanessa were thinking of bumping her. but in the end other ppl bumped us too! like this small boy who bumped into me! twice somemore O: so embarrassing lah. small kids bumping us. then there was this guy who bumped into me. so i fed up, went to chase after him! i think he bumped all of us. cos danica bumped him back too.

haha i think the bumper cars was the most retarded one. bought coffee bean after that. caramel coffee ice blended :D we sat the float thingie, forgot the name. we wanted to bring our drinks, but they didn't allow! so no choice. oh there was this cute malay kid :D who smiled at me! hahahah.

went back to the hotel room. played cards! haha we played one round of daidi and got bored. so mag taught us a new game! haha abit too long-winded. me and danica were like okay can alr let's start! haha anw the game is fun :D we kept playing so many rounds. no idea what time we slept but i think it was quite late O: couldn't really sleep again :/

Day 3

our section had two workshops! the first one was conducted by one of the judges who is a professional oboe player. but he came really late and left early. so it was nothing much. then lunch at kenny rogers cos we were sick of the hotel food.

the second workshop was conducted by this china guy. i say china because his english wasn't very good. went through the syf set piece. and during the workshop, i realised that the girl beside mag is quite similar to her! seeing how they moved from behind was quite funny :D oh and according to mag her playing is okay.

then there was this bassoon guy, the only one, he has good tone. when he played i was like woah! and he doesn't have a strap for his instru o.O then the girl had! same school too. vanessa said maybe it's cos he's a guy! haha ohwell.

friendship concert after that. we were the first band and we played grease :D haha i only like the ending part of the song. and the summer nights where we snap our fingers. and yay i can do alr :D but not very loud though. sigh. then they announced the results. haha we surprisingly got gold, on the dot O: and third overall.

ate food at night. was feeling hungry! :/ and i think this was the night we started falling sick. mag fell sick first.

Day 4

we were supposed to have loads of free time! BUT. there was an extra sort of workshop thingie. so some of us went. mostly were the SLs. haha so okay loh. i like the conductor :D professor john howard! i hope i rmb correctly. yeah he was nice. and that was the first time i heard the set piece. which sounds better than the previous one. so yeah not bad. bassoon guy with good tone wasn't on stage! so couldn't play with him. there were two other ppl. but mag thinks they practised damn hard last night so be flawless that morning. i sadly have to agree! cos their tone still the same.

juniors were waiting outside for us haha. we didn't see them at first! but aww what nice juniors. thanks for helping us hold some of our stuff :D went back to keep our instrus before going to the outdoor themepark! haha. sat some of the rides. danica accompanied mag to sit the kiddy ride! while me and vanessa went to get a drink. then we wanted to win the huge bear but very hard to. ohwell!

it rained abit! sigh. haha then we went back to the hotel and played one round of bowling. i really suck at it O: it was quite retarded. and you know the score names? mag keyed them in. and it went like this:

MAG
NAT
DAN
VAN

haha we all have A in the middle! big coincidence. anw after that we had to prepare for the closing ceremony. vanessa was sick so she didn't play. GAH. before we went up, the thing that happened was pretty funny. and then i got annoyed. ohwell. we played worse btw.

we got a shock at some of the ppl who were the heads! O: like that clarinet guy. and the gay oboeist! eee. so disturbing. "if they can be heads, our whole section become the teachers-in-charge already!" hahahha

since mag and vanessa are sick, they kinda slept first. vanessa slept the earliest! then mag saw her sleep so she also slept. left me and danica watching tv. and commenting about the show. we were watching cornetto's love perhaps. which is really dumb! and the guys aren't even that romantic.

when the show finished, we went to sleep. and i actually could sleep! the day before we go back then i fall asleep. sigh.

Day 5

we only ate cereal cos we weren't that hungry. and alot of ppl got stuck at the lift. then we went all the way up before making our way down haha. then back to singapore! talked and ate on the bus. ramly's burger hahaha. then yay finally back :D i'm really hungry though. gonna eat soon :D

you're such a liar.

section outing! :D

2008-11-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

section outing today! after almost four hours of band. which was really tiring. my whole body's aching now O: okay not my whole body. my left arm and my neck. and i see red spots appearing on my left arm! haha which probably means my blood vessel burst. ohwell. as long as it doesn't break out it's okay.

so we cabbed there. it was quite cheap! haha ate at ikea. we bought alot of food! haha okay not really. but we really can eat huh. i didn't finish my meatballs though. at least i finished the chicken wings haha! although not very clean. mag also :D

and danica can become a vegetarian alr. coming back with salmon and salad! she's very unglam when she eats. was so full after that.

then we walked around ikea finding things to buy. we sidetracked alot though. haha but it was fun. when you have retarded juniors... :D

IN THE END! we bought two cushions and a rug. for our section. haha after a really long time. so i guess today was more of eating than buying stuff. we spent a lot more money on food. bought ice cream after that :D it's really sweet and nice.

and for the first time, we sent mag home! and i'm so gonna play danica's iphone in genting! haha five minutes and i got a high score in that game. yesyes i know i'm awesome :D

aching aching ): math tuition starting tmr. SIGH. haha hopefully i can ask him how to do the maths homework. then maybe pass it to a nice person who can submit my homework and chem spa file. yay!

boo ):

2008-11-18T20:53:00.003+08:00

is today being ill day or something! because everyone seems to be either falling sick/already sick. first off, me! i have the flu ): and i can't talk properly cos my voice sounds funny. got infected. and so! i couldn't go for band today. blowing would only cause it to get worse.

second person! i found out mag's sick too. sore throat and two ulcers at the very wrong places. aiyoh she's always getting ulcers. and that sucks when you play too. but i guess she went for band? i'm not sure. haha she very funny. we need to pack alot of things for next week! medicine is of utmost importance for me.

third person! melody. haha she's sick! lost her voice like me. but she still went school. yay the seventeen magazine :D i wanna read! haha and thanks for lending it to me. hopefully i'll know who she passed it to.

fourth person! debbie hoe. haha i just read her blog and i guess compared to her, losing my voice isn't so bad afterall! but it still sucks.

so yeah weird right. ppl seem to be falling sick. and even though i have three days mc, which is quite alot. so weird! it's not even fever. haha but yeah i guess i'll go on thurs. so i need to get better. if not i'll definitely get scolded.

slept in the afternoon cos i was too drowsy. and i felt better after waking up yay. haha shall sleep early. hopefully can go out tmr :D if not i won't have the time alr.

maybe, just maybe.

2008-11-15T17:35:00.002+08:00

woke up early to go for the meeting. when i won't even be there so yeap! my whole section isn't going anyway haha. band was...SIGH.

i don't know, it's like there's been so many changes ever since they left. and she expects us to get better? i guess mag does have a point, if she wanted to focus on woodwinds she should have started like way before this year. choose pieces that are more appropriate. and yah pieces that had more solos instead of like giving us this piece now with the solos.

and it's annoying how i can play it perfectly fine when i'm not under stress. SHEESH! i hope i'll be okay for genting and syf. sigh can't believe we're using it.

four hours without water is really terrible. your mouth goes dry, and nothing comes out -.-

giok and weishan make a really noisy and retarded pair! dinner after that. and don't worry i like them too :D i know you love spending time with me haha!

official last day of school ytd. lunch with rachael! :D it's been so long since i last talked to her. and i laughed so much ytd thanks to her. then she left and i went to sit with giok and the rest. ytd was the day i realised that it's really tiring talking to weishan, because you have to explain everything slowly and in detail!

section outing next friday :D hopefully no last minute cancellations!

and i think i'm damn pro. but i was supposed to have tuition today. one fell sick, changed to next sat. the other one asked me if i can make it tmr. so yeap no tuition at all today! cool and freaky at the same time since i didn't wanna have tuition today. my throat :/ but i sound normal alr so that's good.

lunch today at this jap food court. they sell only jap food which was not bad! haha ohoh and i have b&j to eat now :D so i'm happy.

and i just realised today that my bro has quite good taste in music! cos i listened to this song for the first time and i was like wow not bad! hahahah. oh and wizards of waverly place was funny :D

IT'S OVERRR!

2008-11-11T21:52:00.004+08:00

last day of school today :D was abit late. not the latest can alr x) no mood to study after bio spa. it was quite alright! finished just before she said pens down. so nothing much. haha cleo said something about me again! which i think may be true in the future. ohwell!

today was annoying. and i think it's more like she can't hear me so next time i'll just play louder. tch. plus we had combine in the forum, freaking hot! and now the weather's kinda cold. so now my mom's worried i'm falling sick haha. because she and my sis don't find it cold. maybe it's just me haha.

and before i go, i shall do this quiz tagged by wenjing haha.

1. What would you do when a handsome guy confesses to you?
haha if he's serious, why not! :D

2. Would you fall in love with a guy not more than 3 years younger than you?
err not really, i want an older, more mature guy (:

3. How do you find school?
sometimes it really sucks, but i guess the people make up for it!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD! and enjoy life yay.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
haha no i don't have a guybestfriend, and if i had a guybestfriend i would actually want him to be gay! it's more fun

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone! because sometimes loving someone is way too hard, doesn't mean i won't try

7. Who is your fav. singer?
NO ONE! hahaha i like many :D

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
move on and find a better guy! haha

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yeah, can't remember now though, BUT i know there was!

10. What makes you angry?
eh i think alot of things. cos i'm really impatient hahaha! and short-tempered. ohman :/

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years?
having a cool and awesome job, and MAYBE married (but very unlikely haha)

12. Who are your top 4 darlings?
haha i'm not sure, anyway even if i did, i wouldn't say it here! :D

13. What is the most important in life?
hmmmmmm. friends and family? HAHA. aww and of course being loved.

14. Would you be single and rich or married and poor?
single and rich! haha you can still get married later on :D

15. What is your fav. color?
I'M NOT SURE! hahhaha. it keeps changing ohwell.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
haha yeah, if it's worth giving.

17. If you fall in love with two people at the same time, what would you do?
in this highly unlikely scenario! i'll figure out who i like more.

18. Are you someone who gets along with others easily?
hmm i guess so. someone said before i look like those who will smile at people even if i didn't know them! hahahaha so that means i'm friendly! and hence get along easily with others :D

19. What do you want to tell someone you like? Can it be expressed through action?
HUG him real tightly and not let go.

20. 5 people i've tagged?
anyone can do it, doesn't really matter! haha

:D

2008-11-09T22:11:00.003+08:00

i keep listening to Can I Have This Dance? it's just so nice (: haha the past two days have been quite dumb. the poetry night thingie on fri was abit pointless. maybe if it was longer it would have been better. my phone has been dying on me whenever i'm outside lately, and yes i feel really insecure without it! it's so weird.

watched house ytd. haha i was quite disgusted by epi5. i never knew she was bisexual! O: ohwell. gg's taking forever ): haha wizards of waverly place is hilarious! i love it. i've been watching it online. because disney keeps repeating so annoying.

oh yeah. i should have just ponned on fri and gone lunch with mag and tiffany. i wasted my time! :/ ohwell. next time :D haha as for today, maybe going to fcbc would have been better. hahah but church wasn't all that bad. after church was hilarious! our parents SIGH. can't stop talking.

and i think the little kids in my church are really cute! saw one today. then when she looked at me she started smiling! haahha then when i waved she carried on smiling :D awwww so cute right. AND I'M NOT A PAEDOPHILE. sheesh. unless you're saying you can don't like cute little kids!

pepper lunch for dinner :D me, my mom and my sis were starving! hahaha so pepper lunch was filling yay! later my sis wanted to cab home because her laptop is really heavy! i was hugging it when she went to use the toilet haha. it's lighter when you hug it :D

careers workshop thingie tmr. SIGH. at least it's only for four hours. bio spa on tues! hahaha i'm gonna be pro and cut potato strips better than cleo! yay. haha and my theory rocks. because it works :D and then school ends! but there's other things. and i hope i can go japan! although i'll need to brush up on my jap, BUT WHO CARES! it's japan! i really hope we can go. it's not even confirmed yet ):

funny funny funny :D

2008-11-06T23:57:00.001+08:00

haha talking to my bro ytd was very funny. he doesn't have school this week! no fair. wanna know why? cos it's READING WEEK. and "it's for us to READ" hahaha i quote my bro man. it sounded so funny i started laughing.

THEN! we were talking. and it jumped to gossip girl. AND HE GAVE ME SPOILERS. for like until episode 10, the latest one. BECAUSE HE WAS WATCHING IT WHILE TALKING TO ME! gah he's such a mean pok :/ here's the part where i asked him to stop giving me spoilers

me: eh stop giving me spoilers! i haven't watch!
my bro: haha i DUN CARE

and he's so gay lah. all his comments, but i shall be nice and not put them up here because i'd be spoiling the show for ppl who haven't watched! haha. oh and he killed some bee which was in his room

my bro: there was a bee in my room just now. dunno how it came in
me: eeeee
my bro: it was between my curtain the window. cos i'm on the ground floor so got a thick curtain and a thinner "privacy" curtain so it was between tt and the window. so i smashed it like gross man...

haha i'm pretty sure someone's very happy about this! okay then he was saying it was spooky hahahha. IT'S A SIGN! was what i told him. then okay he still carried on giving me spoilers.

me: okay then don't tell me! ssssssshhhh
my bro: haha whatever
me: you very mean leh tell you don't give me spoilers you still give me!
my bro: go watch on watch-gossip-girl.com lah
me: nono i wanna wait for it.
my bro: you can watch EVERYTHING NOW
me: i'm a patient person :D
my bro: like b4 you go to sleep haha
me: YOU'RE JUST TEMPTING ME!
my bro: i'm patient
me: hahahahha
my bro: but for gossip girl
me: crazy i still have school tmr
my bro: exception

HAIYOH! hahahaha. he's so annoying come and tempt me. but i didn't watch anw :D i'm gonna wait haha. today! abigail didn't come so i asked cleo to move her table and sit beside me and shushien. haha and she was being very retarded. the main one was "happy can already!" that's her motto. and a bunch of other stuff :D

also today! jayme's very weird and funny dream! SHE DREAMT OF CHUCK BASS! hahahaha. who kidnapped some ppl from her class, including rachel! which is kinda random but yeah. then she dreamt that she went to save them hahaha then debbie was like "wah you main character is it!" haha then it was very funny dunno what chuck bass was drinking coffee then she made coffee for him in the end or something. it's weird she dreamt about him, and it's funny. and i think she's like him loh. SO PERVERTIC! hahahah

poetry thing tmr. and the swearing in. don't feel like going for the latter. SIGH.

two weeks, and i think we'll screw it up.

finally!

2008-11-05T17:01:00.002+08:00

okay so it's finally over! not that i'm happy about it, but still at least it's over. and i'll just see what next year brings. i just really really hope that it won't be on a friday. i think i'll just cry ): they said mid-jan so i really dunno eh.

so anyway watched high school musical 3! hahaha and i can't believe i felt like crying. must be the emotional imbalance. but yeah it was quite sweet :D i can't believe i'm saying this but yeah! hahahah. i can see why cleo felt like crying when she watched.

and now eileen's in love with zac efron! hahahah hilarious. and the company was great :D i did feel better haha. and then i got on the bus. OHWELL.

just read after the fall. and i really hope she updates again soon! it's annoying how he still can't 'come back from the dead' and explain everything to her. then again, i guess that's when the story will end.

and i'm three episodes behind for gossip girl! sigh. maybe i should just watch it online. if i can find good quality ones :D but shld be quite easy right? since my bro could do it and tell me that the latest episode was the best one or something haha.

so yeah. and now i shall relax before actually doing the homework. and i just remembered, ppr tmr ):

retarded!

2008-10-30T22:35:00.002+08:00

i'm currently liking love story (: it's a nice song! so sweet. and nothing wrong liking romance :D so anw i just rmb about what my bro was saying last night. hahaha and he was so retarded! and i don't think he'll see this so it's okay

so the main thing is that he's bored in UK and needs to find a game to play. but he doesn't wanna play granado espada BECAUSE IT DRAINS THE BATTERY QUICKLY! and he was telling me that there's no plot. which is quite true. hahaha and he's bored of it too. haiyoh.

then he jumped to talking about playing final fantasy games. and how he only wants to play from final fantasy 8 onwards (which is what i'd do too since the graphics are better) and then he asked if ff13 came out yet. how would i know right! sheesh.

haha and other stuff. but not important alr. so in short, he was quite retarded last night. still got marble drop O: and he said i'm a lousy player! i'm so offended by him.

a few days more and it's over. i'm actually feeling kinda scared ): cos i don't feel prepared or anything. i just hope i don't suck at the choosing questions. i suck at those. my compre actually seems to be okay o.O

which reminds me. i finished reading a book that belongs to my sister. it must be love! it's quite a nice book, except that it's kinda horny hahaha. but other than that, it's quite okay! reading for fun is okay. shall move on to another book soon. after chinese o levels :/

love story by taylor swift

2008-10-30T19:32:00.001+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a life story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Oh.
I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

Oh, oh.
We were both young when I first saw you...

35, 36

2008-10-25T11:34:00.002+08:00

watched If I Were Superman on wed. i thought it was gonna be a dumb movie, but i guess i was wrong :D and to add on that a certain someone was pinching me again! sheesh. went for jap after that. last lesson of the year! and i'm so sorry to rachel for making her come all the way! i think she rushed there ): but also thanks alot! hahaha

we were stoning during the listening. couldn't be bothered to listen. haha so we ended up doodling. ohwell. band was alright. started late, ended late but actually it was still three hours haha. or lesser than that.

3 hours of maths ytd! i can't believe we actually made it haha. and 5 hours of chinese for me. three in school, two during tuition. TORTURE. chinese was quite alright though. we went to mpr2 and sat on chairs :D it was FREEZING! so we switched off some of the air-cons. and then at one point, quite a number of us went to the toilet partly cos it was too cold and it was getting boring.

and later on we went to mpr1. hahah clarice! :D thank goodness we sat at the place where it was safe to sit :D hahahhaha. and after school cleo was telling me how she overheard clarice and someone else talking abt the horrible truth. and she was so grossed out too. haha so i was nice and told her where was safe to be at. cos dance ppl used mpr1 ytd. having to roll on the floor! i would be disgusted too.

sectionals! mag was being retarded. then we played double whacko before ending band -.- it was quite funny though. cos there was so much screaming, especially from ruijun! ann too haha. then tuition. it was quite alright. ended late. pepper lunch for dinner :D we got the same number again! 36. haha then my mom was funny she walked over to the place we sat at the last time thinking we would be there again. but nope it was at another place, a warmer place. so that's good.

and after seeing that boy ytd, i realised that i'm not strong enough :/

After the Fall.

2008-10-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

When you wake up from the sunset, what comes next?

When the majestic white stallion, the one on which you were whisked away on, is now just grazing haplessly in the field. When you finally realize that your knight in shining armor, who seemed so fearless and dignified, is just a man beneath it all. When something you believed was perfect, was only perfect in your mind. When you reach that cruel moment where reality hits you with full force, wake up from the dream and then realize it was just that - a dream.

It's the fall that defines your path through life, for it's how you continue after the fall that defines who you are.

Some days are more testing than others, and some nights are an endless crusade. It's all an ocean, an infinite sea of remorse and you are caught alone, trapped within its current. Like the sailors hearing the siren's call, the regret beckons you within the darkness that accompanies the night.

You try, God do you try, to act like the fall never hurt.

But it did. It still does…

You try not to be bitter, you try to understand, you try everything… but everything is always just out of reach, and as the months pass on, you do better… but never 'well.' Your life moves on, and so does theirs, but you always dwell on the 'what could have been.'

Maybe some things are just never meant to be, and you have to accept that fact. And how do you know if you have survived the fall? It's when the past catches up to you, and you are able to look him in the eyes… and finally say goodbye.

it's been a while since i last read this! :D
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2090333/1/After_the_Fall

i like the starting paragraph but i have no idea why. i guess because there is some truth to it? all the 'what could have been's in our lives.

and so yes i finished reading until the part where the author has stopped. i hope she updates soon! yay. i slept late because of this.

caught up on my movies to watch! watched hellboy ytd. it was quite okay. some parts were funny. but the ending's quite sweet! because of what he said (:

so reflection day today. sang songs from mamma mia! and aww amanda cried when the song 'if we hold on together' was playing. went to hug her :D and a bunch of other ppl after that. haha rachael teo! and you're welcome (:

today was quite fun. almost cried though. band was terrible today ): and no matter how much i hate it, she makes sense and i can't argue with that. ohoh today's the first time me and mag packed the chairs! hahaha. we managed to escape for two years. but now we're being nice ppl :D we were quite annoyed cos band ended late today. like really late in a long while. when i left school it was 7 alr. tch

sigh. i have a new theory today :D and i think it makes sense. haha and i'm still deciding if i shld go tmr.

aww man ):

2008-10-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

okay so i was feeling sad ytd. results were like shit :/ but i guess watching eagle eye kinda made up for it :D went with jingyi who is a small person with a lot of strength! pinch me so many times throughout the movie O:

so anw the movie was mainly running, running, and more running. and we were like omgomgomg towards the end. hahaha! and i think i'm pro. guessed the parts correctly :D saw my juniors before that. and it's alright alr i guess? hopefully. mag had better go! sheesh.

travelled to j8 so she could get her drawing pens. haha there was this cute small boy with squeaky shoes :D who almost knocked his head if his grandpa didn't put his hand there to protect him.

ate and went back home. western food for dinner :D i like it when my mom cooks that! yay. haha okay so today lessons resumed alr. SIGH. had better get used to it. band was pretty alright i guess. but i was quite bored. kept seeing a certain someone today! hahahaha. and rachael was so retarded. ask me to go catch a lizard when i don't even dare to! O:

went back home to watch corpse bride :D it's funny! predictable but still quite nice. haha and i noticed that the keys victor played on the piano didn't match the notes i heard. ohwell. doesn't really matter. haha i still like tears to shed! figured out how to play it alr anw. shall try to see if i can add in the bass part some other time. and i was laughing when the guy drank the wine. so dumb! and he died in the end. but he deserves it anw :D

something weird happened to my com this morning o.O hopefully the same thing doesn't happen again so that sending the things to my bro wouldn't be so difficult!

looking forward to tmr's lunch :D lunching with entertaining ppl!

the pact (:

2008-10-14T21:55:00.006+08:00

just finished reading it (: it's a good book! and no i didn't cry, NOR was i horny! haha. i just felt really sad for the girl. and the guy too. some parts of the book really do make sense. like how you can tell a person's mental state of mind based on his/her drawing. how true! i'm glad i'm smart enough to make the right choices :D

And, after all, what is a lie? 'Tis but the truth in masquerade. -Lord Byron, Don Juan

There is no refuge from confession but suicide; and suicide is confession. -Daniel Webster

i like these quotes :D and here's one that was proven in the book.

That a lie which is half a truth is ever the blackest of lies; That a lie which is all a lie may be met and fought with outright; But a lie which is part a truth is a harder matter to fight. -Alfred, Lord Tennyson, The Grandmother

after reading the pact, it's really true. SIGH. so anw today's results weren't that great. i'm annoyed at how freaking careless i am :/ on the upside! i'm proud to say that i'm smarter than clarice in some aspects :D hahahaah! okay not alot. only one. but it's supposed to be the hardest part! so yeah.

bio was like shit ): maybe i shouldn't have studied for jap EOY. might have done better for bio. and i had that weird feeling in my stomach again today! i think it's the weather. couldn't breathe. and getting punched by someone did not help! TSK.

band today. SHEESH. my lips are hurting. aftermath of ytd's sudden practising. adding on to today's, not good! haha ohwell. there's a line! haha. and oh no, problem not yet solved :/ hope it'll be alright. and mag had better come! i'll be so annoyed with her if she doesn't.

meet the fockers!

2008-10-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

had tuition today. was so annoyed that i woke up early for nothing cos in the end my dad could fetch me there! sheesh. haha so anw tuition from 10 to close to 1. three hours! did the paper today and i felt quite demoralised ): i can't believe how careless i was! annoying.

bought lunch back. fast food! hahaha. and watched meet the fockers. which was hilarious :D i find the dad very annoying though. little jack's really cute! hahaha and his first words were asshole. funny! i think the whole show was quite funny. but i can't rmb how meet the parents went so i can't compare. can only rmb the cat peeing in the toilet! hahahahha

okay. i practised today :D but my tone really sucks. shows how long i've not played. ohwell. hope tmr would be alright. kinda dreading it though. and i hope debbie the doggy gives me good news tmr :D

i'm almost done with the pact. then i shall post. results tmr. not looking forward to it ): oh and i went back for YE ytd! yay. worship was nice. most of the songs that i like :D and i guess in a way He was telling me something ytd. and truth be told, i felt so bad that i felt like crying. but okay seeing as how someone sounded so wise that day! it makes sense. haha

yay we got a webcam :D so my whole family talked to my bro last night. it was damn retarded! hahah. but it was fun. and don't worry will webcam with you soon! hahahah. i know how you've been wanting me to get a webcam.

OKAY. i think i better go sleep now. no usual cab tmr! it broke down so we gotta flag one down tmr haha. and i really really hope tmr will be fine.

but if you fall back into my life;

swimming :D and games carnival '08

2008-10-10T20:54:00.003+08:00

went swimming ytd! and i got darker alr O: i'm quite sad now :/ haha we only swam eight laps though. which is quite slack. ohwell! half the time me and my sis were talking :D then we went over to our mommy. piggybacks! haha good thing about being in the water. you're probably half your weight even when you're lifted up!

ate at the restaurant at safra. haha it was okay. it was freezing though! then after lunch we walked back to our house. then me and my sis changed and went out. did abit of shopping only. then went back home before leaving for the airport to meet my daddy :D

i fell asleep on the bus. was feeling tired. and it was a pretty long ride to the airport. i've started reading the pact again! yay. haha need to catch up on my reading :D i have like i think five of my own books? and a few of my sister's books!

so anw we went there and ate dinner at earle's swensens. a more high-class swensens! haha it was quite nice. their service was good. i ate sandwich. which was quite nice :D and ice-cream! yay. haha then the manager of swensens could remember us O: she could recognise my mom. but she remembered us wrongly. cos it was our first time there! haha but because the workers are all scattered around the different outlets. so yeap!

and this goes to show how often my family goes to swensens O: haha but she was nice! very funny :D then we cabbed back. fell asleep again! ohwell. and i was feeling cranky. wanted to sleep really early. but in the end i slept at like 11plus :/

games carnival today! played captains' ball. haha which was fun :D other ppl who played were amanda cleo dionne gloria nat and nicolette! we had three wins, a draw (and lost because of the retarded penalties) and lost one by one point! O: but anw it was fun. tiring but yeah. didn't get into semi-finals even though we almost did. if we had won that penalty or won wisdom. then yeah. haha! but it's okay!

and winning against charity wasn't a very nice feeling. cos they were really tired and were short of players in the initial part of the game! was talking to the catcher from charity. and she told me the games' timings all clashed and they were short of players. and they were really tired. maybe they could have planned better for them. ohwell!

and i think i got darker again ): SIGH. at least i wasn't red like abigail! from her swimming ytd and today's sun! haha like a lobster. or scorpion as eileen described! hahahah funny. when scorpions are black. she wanted to say scorpion but it came out wrong. and ms lim used the same description! haha then we turned to look at abigail :D

had band today. cca resumed alr! :/ haha the auditor came. checked instruments. discussion of the band tee again! although i would rather have a jacket. the pullover hoodie kind :D it's practical! but then again, we might not be going.

today was quite fun :D oh and i learnt how to play oboe yay! :D i just hope i can rmb the fingerings until next week. but nvm i can always ask mag to teach me again haha. it's fun cos i'm kinda bored of playing my instrument all the time. but i brought it back today need to practise. if not next week i'd be so dead.

and don't be sad alr! our plan's gonna be alright :D me and mag figure out alr! so it's okay.

IT'S OVER! :D

2008-10-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

IT'S OVER PEOPLE! :D well, for most of us anyway (:

so after 45 minutes of being in school (shortest paper ever!), went to watch the house bunny and mamma mia! with eileen lynette and melody. that gloria ah! didn't come with us in the end. so annoying.

i think we spent alot of money on travelling O: we went to orchard cineleisure first to watch the house bunny. earliest timing so yeap! then we bought food. shared this fried chicken thingie and popcorn with lynette. haha and we finished the chicken even before going in to sit! ohwell.

the movie was very funny :D and it was quite amusing when they all had makeovers and we couldn't recognise them O: they looked so different! haha so overall the movie was funny. and i think oliver's very sweet. the quiet kind of guy who's sweet :D and haha one of the characters was called natalie! who ended up with some guy who kinda reminds me of the guy from the all-american rejects cos of his hair o.O

after that we travelled down to amk hub. called rachael but couldn't get through. we reached her only through sandra. and they were actually still watching the movie O: sorry! but anw we travelled back up to junction 8 and cancelled our previous booking to buy five tickets. haha then rachael came running to meet us! hahaha funny :D she was really running. oh yeah. bought cheese sausage and shared nachos with lynette. this is bad! i always end up eating alot whenever i'm with her O: sigh.

so the next movie we watched was mamma mia! haha it was nice (: better than the house bunny actually. cos it was sweet! it gives you that fuzzy feeling inside. the kind where you'll go aww when something happens. haha and omg the ending! colin firth's gay hahahha. oh and i think meryl streep is quite a good singer. never knew. until now. haha too bad pierce brosnan wasn't as good. and i guess he shld be the dad right? since she had his ability to draw so well. it can't be trained what! or at least i don't think so. and it does make sense :D

so overall, yeap the movie was nice (: haha now i feel sad i can't rmb how the musical was like! to think i went to see it. and i forgot O: okay so after the movie we walked around for awhile before going back. been at home watching season 3 of ghost whisperer :D which is so freaky! i know it's a tv show. but still. can't help but get that feeling sometimes.

i shall be a good kid and try and pack up my room tmr :D since i have nothing to do. and i'll watch other things too yay (: then hopefully swimming on thurs! and i'm sorry for breaking my promise again hahaha. and tch fine lah. i'll do it the next time i see you! annoying shits.

now. back to watching :D

i'm yours by the script

2008-10-03T14:16:00.002+08:00

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap your thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You healed these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went weak and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

check-up!

2008-10-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

three more to go :D and we're done! i can't wait. housebunny and mamma mia awaits (: i think i'll be laughing alot. esp. now that lynette's coming along! madness. haha okay SS paper. finished just in time! but it was really crap.

rain and sunshine at the same time. where the rain was very heavy! and i wanted to walk in the rain then everyone was like this kind of weather very easy to fall sick! and seeing as how i fall sick so easily. i went to gar wai and shared her "BIG" umbrella. it's not even big lah. hahahah. but in the end we walked through the hall. and by the time we finished walking, it was lighter O: yay!

but the sun didn't help though. it was quite hot. haha i had macs breakfast for lunch :D or more of brunch. watched ugly betty! (: which was sweet. and i think it would be really cool if daniel and betty ended up together! :D

haha so after brunch! went to bathe. and watched gossip girl! (: but today's epi not as interesting as the previous one. the previous one is like woah. serena rising up! and she and blair just quarreled. ohwell. haha oh yeah and heroes :D season 3's better than season 2! so i encourage everyone to go watch!

and i shall go study amaths. but i'm quite happy. talked to wenjing after a long long while! :D and don't get ego! and haha. i guess i really haven't gone online for really long. don't go online doesn't mean i don't use the com. OHWELL. and i think vivian's answer is very amusing! it's quite a unique answer :D don't be sad vivian! maybe the markers will still accept.

no mood to study. oh yeah! my check up. i thought it would be very fast. but noooo it took so long ytd! cos i had to take x-ray. and i think taking the x-ray was really funny! like cartoon like that. hahahahah. that's my mom's description for taking x-ray. so in the end my spine's like moderate curve. ohwell. must go swimming :D and lose weight! when i took my weight ytd omg i was so demoralised ): i'm way way beyond. SIGH

so hopefully, when i go swimming, i can lose weight. yay! :D i'm looking forward to next week haha. end of exams! can relax for a while. and i think i'm having hotel stay soon yay! (: but so sad i can't go japan. not like jessalyn. i'm not even sure if we're going gold coast either now :/ and sheesh. will need to practise soon! if not when i go back i'll get a helluva of a scolding.

and i just listened to i'm yours by the script. it's such a sad song! if i let nat listen she'll have the same feeling as me! haha. it's nice and sad at the same time. aww (: and i feel annoyed i dunno how to play guitar. having perfect pitch doesn't help if you can't play it out! can play out on piano, but it's just different :/

my mommy's coming home with food. so i shall wait for her, eat, then i go do :D yeah i shall do just that!

i see a rainbow! (:

2008-09-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

fri was funny (: what with the nice full rainbow we saw! and practically the whole school being retarded together :D haha clarice and i were like, "there's raindrops!" and next moment it starts to rain. haha i'm pretty sure no one was paying attention to him. and that cloud above! like WOAH. it's been a while since something like this happened. and i'm sad i couldn't take a picture of the rainbow ): cos it faded by the time i reached the specs stand! aww man :/

saturday! ANNOYING WOMAN WHO KEPT PESTERING US. like omg. she's so annoying! keep bugging us to help her get that $5 voucher thing. WHEN I SERIOUSLY DOUBT IT WAS EVEN HER OWN RECEIPTS O: how cheapskate can she get! haha my idea rocks. i said since it doesn't even belong to her, we can just walk off with the voucher. i queued for it. so i can get it :D

my dad said, "wait she come and wallop you!" then i was like, "please more like i wallop her can! she dare to come and hit me!" hahahah ohman this is such a bad sign. but seriously! it's people like her that there are rules which state, "one $5 voucher per day per shopper"

SIGH. missed my bro's last worship in quite awhile. studied abit during church. and dinner! came back to rush through lit. couldn't really finish anw. haha oh and TODAY. we changed seats! even though there won't be much difference. it's only one week. then we'll go to our exam arrangements.

and i'm pretty sure it'll be six per row :D i know i'm right! the fast and the furious is showing now. haha! the plot is really easy to forget. ohwell. and seriously man, stop scaring ppl like that! O:

hilarious! (:

2008-09-08T19:25:00.006+08:00

okay. from today onwards, I'M NOT GONNA EAT FAST FOOD! cos last week i ate from practically all the places! except kfc. i swore off kfc alr. never really liked it anw :D so yeap! i know i shouldn't be blogging. but i think my past week has been pretty eventful!

like watching money not enough. i thought i would regret watching, but i cried watching it! ohman. it was so nice. and even now i'm thinking about it and how sad it is :/ reminds me of alot of things. SIGH.

i think i'm pro cos i said i didn't really wanna have tuition and next moment she calls me and it gets cancelled O: sunday too! haha sunday was bs and the topic was. 'I Am The Light'. haha and it reminded me of me saying "do you see the light?" ahahahah i think my family will never get sick of that :D

tuition got cancelled again. so i ended up at home. and watched camp rock! haha it was kind of a letdown cos i was expecting it to be nicer. but i guess in terms of songs they're better, but plot i have to say hsm is better. SIGH.

today was hilarious :D english onwards! hahahah amanda said wall-e was boring! omg and she was like, "nat don't watch it, it's the same as throwing your money into a drain and letting it wash away." HAHAHAHHA! it's funny. contemplating whether or not to watch it. i guess i'll watch online :D

cleo was funny today too! her two jokes. the beethoven one is better. laughed in the middle of english. then english was much better today :D mystery story! we have great imaginations :D

after school! subway :D haha dionne was at the train station when she saw me she was like "NAAAAAT!" hahahhaha and we convinced her to eat lunch with us! and so she did. she copy me! follow whatever i eat, well almost. haha she said, "i'm a copycat!" and smiled. haha!

i think dionne is hilarious! after finishing her drink, she took ice for melody cos she wanted some. then after that! she walked back and refilled her drink. i was like, "does she know she needs to pay if she refills?" so everyone say wait for her to come back.

then i asked, "do you know if you refill you need to pay?" then she thought i was joking. then we were like no serious. and her expression was very funny :D hahahah then then! rachel's stalker O: i feel bad for pressing answer. and she got a shock! haha she's so funny and cute (:

then later on the person call again! before that dionne said just say you very busy cannot talk and hang up! haha then when she was talking, dionne went hi! hi! very loudly. then she pretend to be rachel's mother tell her need to go eat. hahahahah it was so funny :D then later rachel rly lied and hung up! lol

so okay. funny day today :D and okay calvin & hobbes is cute (: OHOH! and i had another weird dream. it beats the other weird one! hahahaha.

Summer, Kind of Wonderful

2008-09-03T14:26:00.006+08:00

okay i said i would refrain from watching it. but i couldn't help it! season 2's out! first episode :D haha i just finished watching it. and i'm glad that dan and serena still like each other! just that they're not officially back together YET. nate's disappointing ): blair and chuck!

The true reason I should stay right where I am and not get in the car. Three words. Eight letters. Say it... that I'm yours.

this is sad! he couldn't say it ): haha and chuck isn't that bad afterall. there are so many quotes. but shan't spoil it for people who have yet to watch :D

A hot lifeguard is like kleenex! Use once and throw away. You couldn't ask for a better rebound!

this is funny! haha and this one, Oh, a honk instead of a knock! Did someone order a townie?

haha all thanks to blair waldorf. and now i can focus. better than not watching and be tempted :D

generous donations :D

2008-08-31T12:10:00.005+08:00

cip ytd at orchard was amusing. and i guess in a way it was fun. you get to see cute little kids! who put the coins in. esp. this angmoh family. haha the boy was so small and cute :D who weirdly didn't want the sticker. so he gave it to his granny! haha and there was this guy who was really feminine! i wouldn't say gay cos he was alone. so yeah at first he walked off. then he came back and asked, "erm how much do i have to give?" then i said, "oh any amount will do!" so he gave haha.

and there were like three ppl who gave me ten dollars! O: like woah. that's alot. lynette's damn pro. hers was the heaviest. haha mine was pretty heavy too. but hers was like to the brim alr! we went burger king to eat. tired and hungry! melody owes me money haha. and i just rmb that mag owes me money too!

so yeah we left at like 1.30. they were so happy. and they said our school always collects the most or something. haha maybe it's because we're so outgoing and actually ask ppl like this "hello would you like to donate?" haha cos others they like don't rly ask? just stick out the cans and expect ppl to donate?

so went back. had tuition. lots of hw ): bought dinner back for my bro. watched finding nemo :D haha one of the few movies that i'll never grow tired of watching! it's so cute. squishy (: we watched deathnote the other day. haha and i don't like light. L has weird habits :D and omg he eats so much sweet stuff! then next moment my sis said that in real life he doesn't eat them at all. must be cos he was too sick of it while making the movie

school's finally ended. i'm gonna start from today. which means less blogging and no more going online! i'm gonna prove that i can do it. so there! haha and i hope you're really feeling better now (: talked so long last night. tsk! horrible truth! i'm so amused :D

i asked God to help you and in a way He did. so that's a good thing. and my weird dream! eee. and thankfully, it's not a dream come true :D

Life is never easy.
If you fail, try and try again.
Don't give up.

it's been a while (:

2008-08-27T21:12:00.002+08:00

today wasn't a good day ): felt so angry with myself again. haha 'angry chi'! ohwell. some songs make me cry easily, especially when i'm emotionally unbalanced. today was no exception, except they didn't fall :D took oral today! it was really crappy. or at least, i was crapping :D so i don't think i'll get good marks. OHWELL!

went back with brenda today! haha it's been a long long while (: so yeah. and i'm glad that nothing's changed even though we don't rly talk to each other on a daily basis. but today everything kinda just came out. so it's a good thing we're those kind of ppl who can still talk to each other no matter how long we haven't talked haha

and i do feel better now :D i watched tarzan just now! reliving my childhood (: it's cute alright! the weird but sweet kind of romance. but still sweet! haha i can't help it that i like romance :D i read endless waltz ytd. aww! it's cute too. i just wish it progresses faster. then i can read more.

okay EOYS schedule came out alr. AND SO! i shall plan study sessions with different ppl :D i highly doubt i can study at home. haha i just hope i'll be able to do it. and if there's band during holidays, i think i won't go either. which is why! i shall bring back my instrument tmr yay (: so that when i'm bored i can go play haha!

i feel tired alr which is weird. i ate alot of fruits today haha. eat so much until i'm feeling so full right now :/ shall go do something productive now :D

(:

2008-08-26T14:20:00.003+08:00

I think a person's life is supposed to be like a DVD. You can see the version everyone else sees, or you can choose the director's cut - the way he wanted you to see it, before everything else got in the way.

There are menus, probably, so that you can start at the good spots and not have to relive the bad ones. You can measure your life by the number of scenes you've survived, or the minutes you've been stuck there.

Probably, though, life is more like one of those dumb video surveillance tapes. Grainy, no matter how hard you stare at it. And looped: the same thing, over and over.

-Nineteen Minutes

finished nineteen minutes last night. like finally! and it was good. i guess i learnt quite alot. church was interesting! topic was on homosexuality. haha so yes we must love them, but not condone their act. that i will rmb :D

school ytd was alright. the term's closing soon. and honestly, i can't wait for it to end. then i'll really study hard :D study sessions soon!
I hate your assumptions.
"Some of us just do a better job of hiding it. What's the difference between spending your life trying to be invisible, or pretending to be the person you think everyone wants you to be? Either way, you're faking."

from nineteen minutes. and i think it's quite true. OHWELL. so annoying. started sneezing again last night. today voice not very good either ): anw there's no school today so good. just watched ghost whisperer! haha this week's one looks interesting. and i didn't go swimming ): mommy didn't really encourage me to. sigh! and the sky looked dark too. but it gave us false impressions :/

now that i'm done with nineteen minutes, i can move on to other books. i have so many more to read. haha and of course, study :D i'm a good kid! yay.

hilarious!

2008-08-23T21:41:00.003+08:00

friday ended off nicely and funnily despite the SS test we had. i kinda crapped everything out? ohwell. was sneezing on thurs night and according to jingyi i sounded rly horrible over the phone. haha i guess i did. my voice sounded weird ytd. and i'm so nice (two lines are better than one alright! DEAL WITH IT!)

lunch with ann, debbie and lynette was hilarious :D i've never laughed so much in my entire life! and lynette is one person who makes me eat alot. we bought so much food! keep buying and buying. so anw shall talk abt when the laughing started! me and lynette went to buy ice then she took spoon for me and put right on top of the ice! so i had to balance.

i did it perfectly! until i reached the table and I DROPPED IT. and it's all debbie's fault! O: i was like O: really like this! then we started laughing. then later! LYNETTE DROPPED HERS! cos debbie borrowed her chi assessment book to look. then when she returned, i have no idea what she did, then the spoon dropped!

then both of us were like, "we angry already! don't wanna talk to you already!" then later we said, "okay you bark for us then we won't be angry already." then she was like "don't want! so embarrassing!"

so we said, "okay we give you ten cents each then you can bark for us!" so lynette really gave her twenty cents (she helped me pay cos i didn't have coins) then at first debbie was like no i don't want! but in the end she did bark for us! then everyone started laughing cos she was like OMG! and started laughing. but anw no one was looking! so yeah.

and then right. SHE STARTED KEEPING THE TWENTY CENTS! i was like, "omg you're really keeping it?! i thought you were gonna return it to us!" and then we started laughing again. ahahahha it was so funny.

okay! then they went to buy food. ann bought the wang wang thingie. two packets! then we ate. then lynette wanted to try throwing. so she asked me to open my mouth which i did. SHE COULDN'T THROW IT IN -.- omg damn funny! she tried three times. ALL CANNOT! i couldn't stand it. laugh too much alr. it was hilarious. the third time she came so near. still couldn't aim into my mouth! it bounced off O:

i have never laughed so much in my life. and as if that wasn't enough, tiffany made us laugh alot too! haha and i think her chem is good. even though her explanation abit weird, but yeah. haha and she made us laugh alot. i laughed until my cheeks hurt! so yeah ytd was probably one of the funniest days in my life (: haha and we slacked ytd. which was alright. didn't have the mood to practise anw.

so anw today. I WOKE UP EARLY! not bad right :D but but. gloria and mag were super late -.- they came at like 10.45 O: but anw we did finish the proj. full of laughs too. and we were talking abt ytd's eng lesson. OMG! me and gloria both have the same thinking! yay! but seriously lah. ohwell. and mag forgot to bring back her pooh bear. so i shall be nice and bring it on mon (:

we couldn't do it in the end ): had tuition today. which was freezing :/ the days just keep getting colder. i closed my eyes during tuition! haha but i was still listening. so yeah. tuition ended really late today! so i was actually late in meeting jingyi for dinner. but thank goodness denise gave me a lift :D THANKS!

we ate pepper lunch. i think she's crazy for wearing a tank top and saying she wasn't cold. IT WAS FREEZING! i was shivering. haha but she brought a jacket. anw after that it was alright. it got warmer :D i smell of pepper lunch now ): and i'm currently alone at home SIGH. i think my mom was really cute just now (: her messages haha!

okay i think i'd better do maths now. tmr not much time. i'll never not go church. but maybe i will. EOYS coming up! and i think i'll start studying alr. there's too much to study. and i don't wanna do badly ): i need to master chem soon. i'm scared by what tiffany said ytd! so i'll study starting next week :D i need motivation. YAY!

i'll start by swimming. then i can feel happy that i'm healthy. i just hope it doesn't rain. it's been raining for the past few days ): i like the rain and all, it's just so cold after that! sigh. okay maths maths. so much maths due next week. aww man!

i don't know ):

2008-08-20T21:10:00.007+08:00

band was alright. i know how to play alr so i'm not that worried now :D today wasn't that great. i'm dreading ): and i don't want to know what my parents will say. jap was alright because i actually knew how to do! but sadly, that feeling isn't there all the time. hardly :/ and that sucks.

i wish i was back in sec1, where we could be retarded and not feel embarrassed. looking at them now i'm kinda jealous. there was this girl saying that she had so much homework to do. sec1! -.- come to upper sec and she'll feel sec1 was nothing.

next week there's gonna be quite little of school. so it's not so bad. and after that EOYS. sigh! study sessions await.

you don't have to worry.

yay (:

2008-08-18T21:19:00.004+08:00

ohman either i really put on alot of weight, or the weighing machine is spoilt! cos i'm very fat right now ): SIGH. these few days have been amusing :D take saturday's lunch at breeks! okay that wasn't amusing. just close call O:

i think i'm seriously accident-prone! one after another. ytd after finishing eating, i put the knife on my plate. then for some unknown reason (i think i just didn't put properly -.-), it slipped off the plate! and almost cut my left wrist O: haha but thank goodness it didn't! it did look red for awhile. but nothing serious. cos the mark faded after awhile :D but yeah i was kinda thinking how it would feel if it had cut me. OHWELL.

tuition and then dinner at grandma's! where we watched the olympics. haha i realise my dad's side of the family is VERY UNHEALTHY! there was so little vegetables! haha i think i'm getting more health-conscious, but it's true! anw we were watching the olympics. aww the relatives i like are my 3rd uncle and 3rd aunt! they're not married to each other just to let you ppl know. they're seriously funny. it's too bad my aunt stays in brunei so i hardly see her :/ she's so funny!

then my uncle. we were watching the shot put females! then got some look like guy. (IT'S TRUE ALRIGHT!) then i was like why are they so fat? then he said, "it's not fats, it's fatty muscles!" ahahhahah so lame right! he so old alr still like that. so yeah anw i think michael phelps and usain bolt are damn cool :D eight gold medals! and fastest running guy. hahaha BOLT. phelps is my inspiration to go swimming now! yay (: i'm gonna go swim next tues. i don't care if it rains! i'm gonna go swim and lose weight. YEAH!

the heptalon one was funny! the woman still won despite being last in the 1500m because she was so ahead of everyone else! so she still got the gold medal. funny but cool all the same :D went back pretty late! ohoh and javier's cuter now. he says bye to ppl! i'm gonna play with him next time hahah.

cell was funny ytd. the guys in my cell bring much fun and laughter to our sessions :D like seriously! haha laughed so much ytd. the chapter was rather confusing, sceptical ppl! haha and illogical answers. but we still finished it. dinner at the guild house, went home and i finished maths :D and did some chem! although i dunno how to do all but yeah.

was mentally prepared for today! :D wasn't as bad as i thought. haha and i learnt horrible truths today O: haha and it's nice knowing that hobbes always wins :D and i think ppl like to quote me alot! haha but for all the wrong things :/ SIGH. so i shall be nice and not quote (: cos it's retarded!

recess was hilarious :D giok + gloria = RETARDEDNESS. seriously! the two of them today. omg i laughed so much! esp. gloria calling giok on her phone when what separated them was melody! aiyoh. tsktsk. hahaha very funny. it's been awhile since things have been like that (:

and i understand why the standard in band has dropped. last time omg the BM was like woah! commands respect (as seen from today's maths lesson), then now is like drop way way down. ohwell! haha i think we all share the same sentiments :D

subway with eileen! haha i ate full meal. she didn't. and we wanted to do work, but ended up talking. OHWELL. nvm. haha i got my subway! :D and now i feel fat ): although it alr balanced out. didn't eat so much dinner. haha presentations today! recorded for rachel. i'm so nice (: and i just tried. can hear too! not bad :D

"calvin is the crazy, retarded, senseless one, and hobbes is the deep, sensible but equally retarded one!"

how true :D and i guess i still quoted. ohwell! i'm done with moxie. gonna find info for geog. then maybe study the chengyu part. haha i just remembered abigail was being very retarded today. but too lazy to write. sigh!

accident-prone ):

2008-08-15T22:24:00.003+08:00

haiz i'm really accident-prone! now i feel so sad for not being able to maintain my non-accident-prone-ness. rah. i missed one step and landed on my left foot? but amazingly it's alright! starting abit painful. but now okay alr yay. except there's a bruise or something. ohwell.

and my eyebags :/ i screwed up bio test. the mcq qns! aww man. but hopefully my structured's better. then still can pass. if not i would be failing again! so annoying. or as amanda says, IRRINOYING! ahahhaha

so yeah this week's been really exhausting. yay gloria's back! haha and she's got darker! which will fade away soon. it's only temporary. then she'll turn yellow lol. band was retarded. choosing of band tee, learning a horrible truth from clarice! O: like omg i got a shock after hearing what she told me!

and haha i think i overworked my left hand. cos it kinda hurts too. SIGH. tiffany got A1 for chinese! :D good for her. haha she has very weird ideas. like retaining o.O! just because she thinks she's gonna do badly for english. but she'll do okay :D haha mag's logic. your first A1 alr! sure will go smoothly. haha so yeah! must have faith.

band was over really fast. surprisingly, wanted to leave early but didn't in the end. cos abit no point. then i was practising. i need to find an alternative fingering so that it'll be easier for me to play. i hope!

haha then mag made it sound like there's alot of homework. but i guess it's for the rest of the week. those that are due on mon is math and chem. AND SO! i guess i'll do them. hopefully i'll have the time tmr. i haven't even done tuition hw O: ohwell!

i'm tired. my eyebags! i'm gonna sleep them off. this past week i didn't have much sleep :/

funny!

2008-08-13T21:36:00.002+08:00

i think the jap proj presentations and stuff is fun. being with jialing melody and weishan was fun! i wish i was in the same class as them can. their class seems more fun. more ppl! too bad rachel wasn't there ): I FORGOT SHE WAS AWAY AT CAMP OMG. and i felt so bad after that O: as in i really forgot!

so since jialing and melody left earlier, i went to moelc today with cleo. who was acting really retardedly. but anw half the time she is! lessons today were pretty fun too. lit! tmr's gonna be hilarious. our song is so crappy. weiqing's hilarious :D

mrs goh came in to observe us like twice today. for lit and maths. so i guess both lessons were quite okay. CHEM TODAY WAS PRODUCTIVE! can you believe it? both me and cleo actually paid attention! and i think my theory rocks :D for all you know, it does work for all the questions!

haha and there was this question which was hilarious. basically the question had three numbers, 80, 34 and 17. so i was like "oh okay let's try 80/34 x 17. but then i don't think it'll give us 40." so we pressed it into our calculator and got a shock O: cos it gave 40! then both our expressions mirrored each other. and we burst out laughing. it was damn funny! and that method isn't even correct. OHWELL.

but it rocks :D and i'm very tired now. went cafe cartel with my mom for dinner. bought coffee to drink. talked to my mom and stuff. haha she was very funny. i think my dad's so cute and sweet to my mom (: cos my mom got high cholesterol? then my dad was like aiyoh! okay cannot eat all this stuff alr. then he even went online to research on how someone gets high cholesterol! so sweet of him (:

my stomach's been feeling funny ever since ytd ): it still has that same feeling. i hope i'll be okay tmr. and i think i'm losing my voice! cos i was talking to rachelle and suddenly she asked, "are you having a sore throat? your voice sounds weird!" O: i don't wanna lose it! shall drink more water.

plus, i hope tmr will go okay ): it's so annoying knowing you're right and still get blamed. even though i wouldn't call that scolding (there are ppl who had worse luck than me), but still! so i'm gonna go down early :D i'm a good kid! but anw i guess it's partly cos i wanna prove that i can play it. haha i got reputation to uphold :D

it's not life that's scary.
it's all the what-ifs in your life.
what could have been, what is.
i'm still feeling scared,
but i'm just praying it'll be alright.

):

2008-08-10T22:23:00.002+08:00

haiz now i feel very angry with myself for not going to send her off ): i'm gonna miss her alot even though how i act probably doesn't rly reflect it. but yeap. confide quite alot in her and it'll be weird to not talk to her. so you better continue calling! :D and email. email not so much. but yeah call :D

so okay today went by. i think what mel taught today was really interesting. haha seeing as how the topic's on friendship.

basically this is what i've learnt. the four things friends should do!

1. Friends accept each other.
2. Friends encourage each other.
3. Friends forgive each other.
4. Friends stick together.

those are the four main things. and haha i guess i learnt alot! i know ppl who should have gone to listen :D seriously. supposed to forgive and forget. and haha some of the things were really funny. one example of annoying things friends do, take your drink without asking! ahahhaha. that was quite funny. oh and the whole money issue. and even the copying notes part! lol

cell was funny. bonded awhile. and guys don't share when it comes to this kind of things! tsktsk. and woah i never knew andrew could play bass! not bad :D i wanna learn guitar! and get myself a cool electric guitar (: but first i'll need to learn how to play it.

yeah so today's topic. i'll be sure to take the notes my sister took and bring it to educate someone! tsk. tuition after that. haha tuition ended fifteen minutes earlier! cos a girl in my class had to leave early. then she say she'll extend next week's one. but i can't stay later. got dinner next week so yeap! :D tuition was funny.

there's this guy who seriously looks like a nerd and behaves like one. which is damn funny! the whole time me and denise were laughing :D so yeah. i'm not putting him down, i just think he's very funny. and my sis thinks he has the look too! so haiz. i feel bad for him.

and omg denise told me last week she gave the person who won money! incentive to memorise those sentences. gah. i shall try next week. haha it's quite fun! then can feel the pressure. okay so after tuition ended, my family was like "so how to go botak jones?"

so okay. gave them directions and all. then turns out the one we wanted to go to alr closed down! haha shld have called tiffany earlier. ohwell. i guess we'll go there next week :D came back to watch CSI: New York. i like it alot! and next week is gonna be so exciting. MATT'S GONNA GET KIDNAPPED! i think my sis is a sadist. she was like "woah so exciting!" my reaction was like a gasp. cos he was gonna get shot! O: but obviously he won't die so yah.

tuition tmr. i guess i can't go for the picnic tmr ): plus that stupid maths test. GAH.

haha!

2008-08-09T11:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D

woke up real early today to reach school at 6.30am O: so we can go play at the observance ceremony at kebun baru cc. WASTE OF TIME. i rly pity gloria. in the end only got one flag then i think they joined in the marching. so poor thing! wake up early then no need to raise flag. haha it was quite boring. and hot O: we had to wear our blazers

then went back. it was only 8 -.- so me and mag went macs to eat! haha so she called tiffany to ask her to come. so yeap she came later. looking and sounding rly tired. haha we met alot of ppl at macs :D okay then she came and talk abt the guy that they met. CCB! omg he's damn gross O:
they told me until i never see him before i also feel disgusted. she even wanted to call him to talk to him so i can hear! haha then next time they have prac, i really hope it won't be in school O: we spent more than two hours inside macs. haha was really funny

and tiffany's cute guy. aiyoh! younger than her somemore. ohwell. now i'm feeling sad. she's leaving tmr ): early in the morning and i dunno if i can send her off ):

08.08.08 :D

2008-08-08T17:47:00.008+08:00

haha couldn't think of anything else. but yeah! haha today, i was almost late! and i'm not slow okay. abigail kept rushing me. haha then went down took quite awhile to find the class though. clarice! my marker :D

so yah we did that whole human chain thingie. holding hands then we were supposed to say the national pledge too. we spent two hours outside, luckily it wasn't that hot :D cos i predicted correctly! it was a waste of time! cos in the end we didn't say the pledge O:

haha and this was taken cos we realised there were three blues, two yellows, and one green! so yeap :D no idea who made that discovery. i got a feeling it was me O: OHWELL.

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EILEEN TOH WAS THE ONE WHO MADE THE DISCOVERY! haha are you happy now? :D
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so anw there went the whole point of doing it. OHWELL. haha so after that fish&co. for lunch! with cheryl clarice eileen jingyi sharon and shirley. gloria joined us later. the seven of us walked all the way to amk hub from school :D besides, all the buses were so crowded! so yeah. haha nvm it's exercise :D

we felt the ground shake at amk hub! O: so scary. haha wait it collapse! we waited quite awhile before we got a seat. then yeah. all of us shared except for cheryl and jingyi. what pigs! haha okay kidding. just didn't feel hungry at that time.

talked and ate and took pictures! sharon and shirley ah...they were being so gay! haha okay then by the time we finished and everything, it was like 3plus. then we all went home. when i came back i thought there was no one at home cos of the windows were shut, only to find my bro inside his room with his laptop! haiyoh.

the rest of the week was quite alright. minus the fact i slept rly late doing the movie review. then this morning i noticed the rings under my eyes! O: need to get rid of them. and i rly hope we don't have the retest. it's just not fair to us, especially if we didn't even cheat. like seriously! haha but the petition thing was quite amusing. seeing as how our level seems to be the only level that has been doing this :D but yeah i actually forgot to sign in the end. ann was very funny. she signed blindly! not knowing what was it about LOL.

ohoh and abigail was very gay and retarded ytd haha the whole pasting stickers thing! and we forgot to take a picture of her sleeve O: haha thanks to her gay-ness, we made alot of noise! but we didn't get scolded. so yeap :D

screw tmr still need to wake up early. my earliest in fact! reach school at 6.30am omg! haha gloria also need. raising flag. we playing. but they worse than us, no cip hours. at least we have :D and whatever happens, i'm glad i won't be responsible. dunno if she's bias or anything, but she wanna let her do then fine loh. i told clarice, but she doesn't think she is? so i also dunno. OHWELL.

i'm hungry :/ longjohnsilver for dinner later! haha parents buying back for us. they did loads of stuff today. like buying a new printer cum scanner cum photocopier :D YAY. finally. i hope he sends the com for repair. even though don't rly need. but all the pictures! O: haiz.

ohman ):

2008-08-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

okay so i might or might not fail chem test. BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT. i actually studied quite alot for it! haiz :/ this term's gonna be damn shit. not to mention how annoyed i got. i really need to look less angry! which means i'm actually bad at covering my emotions up too O: cos it was very obvious haha

HMM. lessons went by pretty quickly today. i learnt a horrible truth today! O: haha and amanda was hilarious :D okay then chiong to buy food! was still eating when she came but she never say anything so yah.

new song today! some jericho thingie. hahahah i can't rmb what happened alr! in the story i mean. so anw. yah i realise this piece has like two solos? O: it's those kind where if you don't play it'll be damn obvious! wah like picking on me or something can. like lately oboe got very little melody parts to play! that's what i noticed lah. as in it's not the main melody.

HAIZ. ohwell. it's not that it isn't nice or anything. haha i think how they quarrel is very funny. then what argue over bassoon and euphonium o.O so yah in the end we were playing the front part. cos it sounds nicer o.O but actually right i think it's cos she knows that she can't play the note. and i know she can't play. and i dunno why! haiz. her junior can though.

i have no idea if i made sense or not. but in short, i conclude! that woodwinds will always win because she is afterall the one that is conducting us. but it's funny to watch them argue :D cos one bias towards woodwinds, another bias towards brasses. TSKTSK!

ahahha debbie the doggy is being so gay right now! :D and i shall go sleep. i realise that today passed by really fast. i think it's cos i went in to bathe at like 9 O: which is quite early. but yah for a weekday IT'S LATE! ohwell. two more days to go before short break :D

what do you take me for?

:D

2008-08-04T20:58:00.003+08:00

this post is for rachel! she was so high today. like seriously. so obviously she didn't get any sleep. so anw! jap today. she was hilarious :D cos i used her phone to sms. then i was like "you don't have the word damn?" then i added it in. and she was like "NOOOO! my vulgar-less dictionary!"

then i was like what! really don't have?! so i went to type shit. REALLY DON'T HAVE! so i went to add it in :D and she went, "NOOOOOOOOOO! MY DICTIONARY HAS BEEN TAINTED WITH VULGARITIES!"

omg damn funny! then i added in the word omg. then she was like "do you know that my dictionary has no short forms?" then i was like "huh then what do you type?" and she replied, "OHMYGOODNESS!"

hahahaha she's hilarious :D then i added in the word freaking and she went "NOOOOO MY PHONE HAS BEEN TAINTED WITH YOUR VULGARITIES!"

O: they're not even that crude. there are worse one. ahhahaha i laughed so much today thanks to her :D the result of her not sleeping! she's the opposite of ppl can. when ppl don't sleep they'll normally be very lethargic. for her, she's like super high! sugar high. seriously

okay so i got back home. was eating dinner when jingyi called me. then yah i guess life is really short. and it's rly scary. and i know death is a very real thing. but somehow, it's just so unreal at the same time. and i guess you never really think about it until someone you know just leaves like that.

then you'll ask why is it that God took this person away so quickly? you'll be thinking he's contradicting himself. but then i guess he does have a plan for everyone. who knows, maybe he doesn't want you to suffer so he takes you away first :D which means he loves you alot! (:

but yah. for me, i really felt like crying after hearing it. i don't know, it's like i didn't even know the person. but i just felt rly sad after hearing it. kinda reminded me of when my grandma passed away. like i wasn't close to her, but still it affected me, without me knowing it until i realise that i was crying.

so yeah. life is really fragile. AND SHORT. like maybe tmr Jesus will come back alr! i'll be very happy. but being realistic, it won't happen yet. cos those signs haven't appeared yet! although some are happening now. i just hope i'll be able to survive through it all. and that my faith will be as strong. and that i mean what i say. and i'll be nicer to ppl from now on (: wait they hate me O:

SO CHEER UP! DON'T BE SO SAD ALR (: i'll be nice and cheer you up tmr haha!